Jealous : Fearful or wary of being supplanted; apprehensive of losing affection or position.

A huge part of me has that. As much as i want it to go away, its not. My suspicion ran wild. Its like i want him all to myself. The thought of them enjoying without me, scares me.

I never wanted to be the control freak coz i dont like to be controlled. But when i keep it to myself, my mood changes. It scares me even more.

I can never be happy...