School has been ok for me... Its been two weeks since it started. The journey to school is..hmm.. dont even mention. its tiring. Long and dreadful. NR0626 is fun. Unexpectedly..we are united. I thought the PRC would not entertain our nonsense..but hey.. THEY DO!!! I know u'll say.. "haiya, its just the begining..sooner or later, they'll fall apart.." Right? i dont think so lah.

We played pepsi cola, chi ko pak and all that stuff together..even in public. Its kinda childish and embarrassing, i know. But we had fun. Who cares.. I dont wanna say much on school. Theres too much stuff to say.. but i cant be bothered to list them out. Ouh.. its so awkward to see that 'syafiq' guy in school.. they last time we were in the same school was like 11 yrs ago. Hes so hao lian..wadahell..

Im going bangkok tmr. yey! Gonna shop till i drop. I dont care. LAlalala....im gonna miss my baby.. Heee...Anyway, congrates on ur winning.. hug those medal to slp k...

Why am i such a loser? To think that i always my close ones in mind, i thought i'll be in theirs.

Sometimes i thought,

Why should i care about them when they dont care about me? Why should i think about them?Why should i always be the one to contact them? Why should i care about their feelings when they dont care about mine? This is FUckIng UNFAIR! Sometimes i told myself that im not gonna care about them anymore. I dont wanna think about them. Im gonna hate them. But i cant..coz they are so dear to me.

I hate myself for getting into this mess. Its worst esp when i already made the effort to reach them, but i couldnt or they simply dont reply.

SUCKS!

Im confused. Why am i being treated this way? Can anyone pls answer me?Isnt it better for them to tell me straight in the face that they dont want me to be part of their life anymore?Im willing to withdraw myself if my presence bothered them.

Oh well, since im begining a new chapter of my life, maybe i'll forget abt them. Isnt that what they wanted? I really cant be bothered now. Im tired of having this feeling. If this is what i get in return, then maybe i should just stop bothering them. It wont fucking hurt me as much.

For now, i'll just wait.... Or maybe not...

I could never imagine.. leaving them would be tough.. The feeling's the same like when u broke off with your boyfriend or girlfriend. 3 months is long enough to be very attached with them..

I managed to hide my tears when mrs tan, mdm ong and stephenie told the children that today was my last day. some of them understood, others dont.But when it came to Mdm linda's class, combined with Jessica's, i cant control it anymore. When Travis hugged me, i started crying. Im going to miss him the most

Recalling over what had happened over the past 3 months, i really cant help it but to smile. They are just adorable. I cant describe them. Sorry.

Im tired..very tired..

U said i dont believe u.. U feel that i dont? When i do.. We r not communicating..Thats y..

Im not in the right mood now..My heart is crying...

I just need some time to trust myself again..

Sorry to make u feel that way.