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CONFUSED
"...Because of you..I find it hard to trust not only me, but everyone around me..Because of you..I am afraid..." Ma heart was fer u..bt i dun think u knew..u left me in a lurch.. not knowing how much it hurts.. i tried to bear da pain..bt it's juz giving me migrain..and now dat u're gone..em feeling all alone.. SHUD i or shudnt i? i duno. em still unsure. feels lyk bt bttr not coz em not sure if it can make me happy..wad if i was asked..am i all prepared? most probably..NO! well..i guess..i'll juz go wif da flow... TIRED LAH
it was an ok dae fer me..was kinda tired..had p.e fer da fers period. wad'ya expect..den da weather was so nyc..can bring us to slp.. yah..slept fer a few min fer sum lesson..ssshhh..bt i was damn tired..den ltr..after skul..went straight home.. at 5pm..met han wen and went to tamp lib to study..lucky us..we gt da place to study even w/o searching fer it.. did our stuff fer 2 hrs..den he sent me to da bus stp..his company was fun lah.. crap alot..hmmm...i so cant open ma eyes now..!
HAPPY
DUNNO y i was happy to see da old photo again..wad was dat suppose to mean..hmm..mayb nothing..juz feel lyk changing i guess..no reason..hmm..bt wadever it is..i am happy..yey..!
BORED
gosh..i was bored to death in d afternoon..i was suppose to go out wif ma fwen i wudnt wanna tire him coz hes werking at 7pm..so we canceld da outing..lina din inform me abt watching da movie at 0410..i tot she wanted to watch at 0140..dats y i cant..aiya..u ar.. shud hav called me earlier..nvm..den i msg dina..shes able to accompany me..yey..! i accompany her to trim her hair..den went to da lib..mins ltr..met hakim at princess..gonna play pool..well..ma treat! wen dina said she haven bn playing fer a long tym..she really mean it..u can tell by da way she played.. not trying to say anything thou..bt hey gurl..u really hafta improve..i noe u can do it.. i played 3 games wif hakim..well 2-1.. he won..da cost wasnt as expensive as i tot..in fact..it was very cheap.. if it were to compare wif pavilion. shud play more..hehe.. well..had our dinner at MAc..then went home..well..at least its bttr den staying at home all da long..omg..i am suppose to do ma folio..bt aiya.. em juz plain lazy..u shud noe dat by now ryd..? yup..well..dats all fer todae.. toodlelooozzzz...
I MISS YOU
em feeling so guilty ryd now fer 'shouting' at him wen hes not at fault.. sumhow..its juz dat i miss him badly..and i dunno if he noes.. todae.. chatted wif him bt as usual, he'll reply a werd or two. i was ok wif it bt i juz cant figure out why he cudnt write any longer den dat..his 'nvm' gt on ma nerve and so i kinda scolded him..omg..i shudnt hav done dat..den he told me dat..hes trying to tok to me..bt after da 'shout'..he tot em nt intrested.. NO! i AM..! in fact i want to..i miss da old tyms we had..all da luff and jokes.. bt now hes bz wif his stuff and dat we no longer kp in contact.. em very sad.. honestly.. i dunno y.. bt dis feeling of guilt and lonesome wun fade away.. em used to his accompanionship bt wen he suddenly 'left' me..i feel so awkward. wen i saw him juz now..i dunno why ma heart pounded. its strange..bt yah.. guess its bcoz i miss him loads. ayte, em not gonna go on wif dis..lemme me think fer maself on how i can heal dis wound in ma heart. -wud luv to go back lyk hw we used to b-
Why
WHY muz all da ppl i luv or begining to lyk..go away juz lyk dat..even before i cud make maself happy..? or even wen em begining to fill da emptiness in me..dey left me in a lurch.. why? i juz cant figure dat out..ders a few examples alr.. hate it wen it happens..u noe..i fyn maself useless..mayb bcoz i cant make dem happy..or em being sucha jerk dat shoo dem away...? well..perhaps..i dunno..its hurting me if em nt aware..i may b leading a normal lyf..u'll see me luffing practically everydae..dats hw i am in skul..ya..happy-go-lucky..bt wen em at home..i hav no one..em so lonely..!i've bn saying dis often..bt dats da fact..i am lonely..i think i lyk sumone..bt i dun think dats possible..so i bttr not try.. i lyk being single coz dats da best but...u noe..i dunno hw to put it in werds.. luckily i still hav ma gfs..of all close fwens i hav..i can only b happy wen em wif naqiah and hidayu..even wen em in foul mood or sad or wadever.. by juz luking at their faces..it can make me smile.. its lyk..being wif dem.. i feel more secure..happy..problem solved..everything...i dunno y..mayb we hav dat bonding..em juz being maself wen em wif dem.. if em wif oders.i feel abit awkward..u noe..em grateful to hav gfs lyk dem.. thanx gurls..really appreciate wad u guys hav done fer me..luv da bof of u so much..!!! well..gonna perform wif pasir ris band tmr..including da swiss band..we r in dis wasbe thingey... gonna b a whole lot of experiance and sure gonna b a memorable one..ayte..gonna start packing..hafta sleep early..gonna b a long dae fer me tmr.. hmm..ps* miss u so much..!!! In Pain
ouchie...i sprained ma right ankle...!!! again..hmmm...well..skul was ok fer me.. learning new stuff everydae..hey..went to da dental juz now..ma name was koled up..ok..among da 5 of us..i went last..well..every yr..da dentist will say,ask and do da same thing bt i juz dun wanna gt ma butt to dat place...ok..i either hafta put on braces or extract 5 teeth.. ouch.. nvm..ok..em done wif ma artefact..yey..!!! so din do much juz now fer dnt rem.. i spent mos of da tym playing bball..uh huh..! i was soaking wet mun..ma shirt became translucent..haha..ooppss...ok..had a great 'match' juz now..bt not till we met da bns boys..dey had chess comp in our skul..den dey came down fer a moment to play wif us..ryd..as usual.. em d only gurl.. ming han and kai rui warned me nt to take rebound..bt fer once..i din listen to dem and yah..accident happen.. not really a major one thou bt em injured.. was jumping fer da rebound..den shao long gt da ball..he landed and hit me..i fell on da ground..sprained ma ankle and had scratches on bof knees..da rez were concern..bt i told dem em fyn and cont playing..bt da fact was dat i was in real pain..bt hafta bear wif it..well..after dat..went fer band..its our self practice dae..went up to rest and cool maself down.. played sum songs lah wif ma horn..its very tempting.. i walked out of da skul alone..bought ice soursoup to quench ma thirst.. sat outsyd OCK... den later..sumone came towards me..its edwin..ooouuhhhh.... asking me wen em going home..hes so sweet lah.. den off he went to buy a drink fer himself..sadly..we had lesser communication these daes..ouh yah..played wif him bball b4 he went fer his bball training..hes ma opponent..urgh..!! dat guy.. talk alot bt play lyk shyt..haha..nt dat bad lah.. em juz exagerating.. ok.. after dat..went home..limping..yesterdae..i made mr ong luff..dats a miracle man..we were doing our scaffold..and da title was flight..he asked us to mention wadever things dat flies..ma fwen said penguin..hippo..and spontanously..i shouted 'AIRPORK'..din mean to crack a joke..dat werd juz came to ma mind.. well.. da reaction came 3 secs later..everyone ws luffing..i hid maself under ma arms.. shy shy.. dats wen mr ong luff..hhaha..and he said.."i think u watched too much advertisment"..wadever..hahah.. i was blushing..well..lots of thing happened..bt i cudnt remember.. ma brain's not functioning well ryd now..em shagged.. gonna fall aslp soon..after mama amssage ma ankle.. going to fathiah's place tmr.. her brader's getting married..em touched wen she invited me..i tot fatima wud go..bt ders sumthing dat i shudnt say out here happened..so ok..em so happy.. coz it feels lyk we r back togeder again..lyk da old daes..thou we aint dat close nemore..its fyn by me...hmmm..hudah's bdae cuming up..i haven search fer da prezen..dunno wen..gonna spend ma tym at fathiah's place during da wkends..ok den..em so tired dat i cant even sit properly while typing dis entry...well...hoping he wud call..lots of things to tell him.. WA XIANG NI... A dae nt to b fergttn..
aaarrrggghhh..!!!! dats all i can say ryd after i stepped out of da examination room..had ma mt oral juz now..sux man...!!! i dunno wads da link btw a passage and da conversations...really...da passage was abt 'sanggul'. da fers conversation was abt- does ur appearance matters? and sumthing abt malay language..crap man..i was trembeling i tell ya.. thou i gave dem ma usual sweet smile bt only God noes hw scared and nervous i was..em so gonna fail dis oral..unfortunately..we can only take it once..unlyk da theory papers..urgh..! der goes ma a1/2.. heck..ok..fer eng lesson juz now..we did SRA.. and ma grp hafta start wif da new cards..its 3B..while oders still doing 3A..its damn diff..da werds r so difficult..and we cudnt figure out wad was da meaning..even ma teacher had hard tym explaining.. dat tough huh..!ok..learn lots of new werds.. wic was gd fer us lah..lyk-prosaic,amguity,tutelage,tumultuous..bla bla bla.. argh..! i so nd to improve on ma vocab..lyk uh huh..! oh..ma baby wished me luck fer ma oral despite wad had happened da nyd bfer.. hey..wad were u thinking huh? notty2.. after ma oral..met lina and joey..accompanied me to pasir ris to collect ma newly made ezlink..in btw..ate at delifrance..went to da lib..ard 6+..i reached hm..soaking frm ma sweat..da weather was humid and i was in a rush to go home..cant wait to see mama..cik tan sms me after ma P.E..saying dat mama kept crying..guess i noe da reason y..she was sad coz dis is da fers tym we r not celebrating ma dad's bdae..its his bdae todae.. wen i gt hm..mom's eyes were red and swollen..i asked her to relax..and tried to console her..i maself was at da verge of crying..bt i held back ma tears... was too tired to even cry..i unpack ma stuff..washed up and rest.. hmm...ma band's gonna hav our performance at bukit batok wif da wasbe thingey.. i dunno if i can make it..its on sun and its in d evening..wah.. den da nex dae will be our free concert trip...wadahell..! ouh ya..da office had learnt abt out absentism fer phy rem during jun hols.. ya ya..mr heng complained.. so..we dun giva a damn man.. after reccess..nahar told doz who didnt attend fer da rem .. to stay back after skul fer sum stuff..dat wud b da whole class..only 5 of dem turned up..ya.. our class damn attitude sia.. dat includes da 'innocent' gurls lyk edna and xuan yu.. haha.. daring seh.. ok..as promised..our united class went down to DC room straight after skul..incredible..! waited fer 20 mins..nahar wasnt at sight..gt to noe..he was having a meeting wif da bloody prefects dat din do their job..hello..i was in da board once bt quit after 3 yrs..crap man.. arse-hole..waste our tym sia..so da malay ppl went straight up to da lib fer our oral.. hmmm... wonder wads gonna happen tmr.. nahar's gonna scream at us..if he scold us fer not attending da phy rem..em gonna tok back to him..regardless hes ma cousin or not..da whole class cudnt understand da way heng teaches us..hw r we suppose to pass..? even if we tried to concntrate and learn..nothing will absorb in da brain... really..! if nahar has da last say of nt gonna change our phy teacher..em gonna say.."ok..fyn..if u wan da standard to drop..by all means..let mr heng teach us!" i cant tolerate dis anymore..well..em not gonna prolong dis matter here..gonna do ma mads hw now..i fergt i had one..and ders mads rem tmr..by hook or by crook..i hafta finish dem.. HAPPY BURFDAE ABAH..smoga doaku dpt disampaikn kepadamu.. and ALL DA BES TO OUR BASKETBALL TEAM.. dun b afraid.. i can assure dat ccs can win to bds if u all put ur effort and try ur very best..gd luck..!!! TIRED
wah...ma body's aching sia..i sure nd to do lots of exercise..ok..went to skul..was late again..nt really late lah...was juz on tym b4 morning assembly..wah..i've bn cabbing to skul dis wk...thrice..byk duit?? hmm... terpakse oi..!!!ok..we had dis stupid emergency exercise..gosh..da sun was scorching hot sia.. and we again sat in da naked field fer lyk 20 mins or so..shud hav worn bikini..brought big towel along and ma shades.. treat it as if em sun tanning..isnt it bttr..i've grown darker fer dat..urgh..!!! after skul..had dnt rem..i still got sum stuff to do.. really hate ma project..ma artefact sux mun..!!! really..even after da finishing.. wadever..!!! while witing fer da laquer to dry..i played bball..as usual.. dats ard 3+.. hey..i've bn given a name..SHARP SHOOTER..em gd ok..fer sum1 who dun play bball..and em a gurl..ma shooting..whoa..go ryd into da ring even wifout touching da rim..i lyk..and i shoot dem frm far u noe..not under da net..haha..todae i learn to dribble da ball..did quite well actually..gt once..i dribble..and cover ma opponent..and juz shoot wif one hand..it went in..!!!can u believe dat..doz guys were really impressed..i can tell..den u noe..while playing..i heard sumone 'uh hmmmm' me..i turned..and its ma baby..aiya..sebok je..tot of showing him ma skills..skali ma luck wasnt wif me..den he said em lousy.. and dat em nervous wen hes ard..hello..!!!em nt ok..i dun even care..nvm..! we played till 0630..dat very long..ma feet started to feel tired..took da bus hm wif ocp and anoder guy..in da buz..ocp msg me...asking if i believe in love at fers sight..i was lyk..oh ohh...sumthing's fishy..hehe..exactly..he told me directly dat he wants to b wif me..huh???!!!!we barely noe e/o sia..no no no!!! em nt dat type..sori..i rejected him..bt nicely ok..i acted as per normal wen we walked hm..he lives near me..haha.. mayb hes shy..bt i dun care..toked crap..hehe..gt hm..took ma shower and lay down till now..after extreme makeover..haha..dat long huh..4 hrs of lying down..baby koled..bt he slpt on me again..!!! den i suggest he bttr put down da fon and slp..y bother to kol wen ur tired..??? alamak..!!! bt dats sweet of him..aiya..fergt it..gave fathiah her prezzie after skul..hehe.. purposely...noone else gave her nething..as always..me and hudah only..i koled her juz now..asked if she lyks and can fit into it..she said she luv dem..thank god..and gt da ryd size..yey...!!!and da card..she said was touching dat she actually cried..i dunno wad hudah added on it..bt fer sure..i wrote sumthing so sweet..i guess..!!! hehe... hmm..ok den..gonna slp after dis..em dead beat..really...nyd..!!!
soO Happy
"...Now I would like to announce that we have just been accepted to play for the International WASBE 2005 Conference in Singapore, as an outreach band for the event!!! This is indeed an exciting event and the most honourable one, because not every band is selected for this. I have talked to the officer for this event and together with the effort of Mr Kaw, we have been given this opportunity to put Changkat Band into the World map! Isn't it great!! No group in the school has reached the international level of participation as far as I am concerned! It's a first for Changkat, for our band....We will be playing side by side with another international band. (from goodness knows which part of the world, but it is definitely a big sounding and world class band!)...We cannot have a show down in front of the whole Singapore, less to say, the whole World (because there will be band delegates from all over the World during this week, and some will be watching us play!) ..." omg..heard dat..?? dats wad mr png email us..omg..!! em so excited..dis is sooo cool! i so lyk ma band..thou we r small and not popular and all..bt wif our teachers and mr png's effort..we've gt lots of perfomances and exposure..we dun mind actually..coz we had fun after every perfomance..we also gtta strengthen our bond wif e/o..dats wad i lyk..sumtyms..being in da small band benefits alot..really..!!em so gonna miss dis band after i grduate frm da skul..i dun wan..!!!i still wanna b part of da band as members..nt alumni..!!! seriously..i LURVE. dis band 2 bits.. everyone's juz happy wif e/o's company.. urgh..!! stp it diana..!!! ok..i dunno wad else to say.. everything seems to vanish frm ma mind since i read dat email..haha.. ok..i was late juz now..fer skul..bt not really late larh..went out of da house late..cabbed to skul..reached skul ard 0710..still gt da tym to visit da toilet and tie ma hair..hehe.. its all ma baby's fault..i tot he'll kol ard 0530-0540..bt no..he kold at 0605.. reason was..it fergt..its ok..nt angry wif him lah..juz dat i rushed lyk hell..after ma shower..i ironed ma skul u and pe shirt.. afterwic..i visited da toilet again coz i hafta clear ma bowel.. den packed ma beg and left da house at 0650..really..!!! ok..skul's sux as usual..very tired lah todae..mayb i've bn jumping ard..played bball fer p.e and after skul..ok..last 2 periods..we had dnt..so ok..concntrated on dat..really hafta rush..! den after skul..we gt phy rem..bt as usual..we din go..seriously..ders no pt of going..we dun even understand his lesson.bttr let mr ngo teach us..hes bttr.. alot bttr..!!! den i guess mr heng complained to mr goh..our P..ltr mrs pinto came out and called da boys..dey were playing bball..luckily i stopped alr..i was massaging kai rui's thumb.. injured lah..so ok..i went to da werkshop to cont wif ma artefact..nt long after dat..i went hm..dropped by at ezpt fers coz hafta buy fathiah's bdae card and wrapper..its her bdae tmr..da tue si dektu..hahah.. wen i gt hm..mama was watching tv..i lay down bside her..and soon fell aslp..wif ma soiled clothes.. eewww..was awaken by ma fon..it rang and its baby edwin..chat wif him fer awhile..while waiting fer his tutor..den took ma shower..and here i am..blogging..gonna write da bdae card nw..DIA's starting soon..gtg ppl..HAPPY BURFDAE FATHIAH...ouh...mine's cuming..yey..!!!!
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