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That day, i came to realise of how you felt towards friendships. I now cant blame u for being emotional, so to speak. You have the right to. I felt the hatred you had instantly. But im glad you didnt react to any violence. That look says it all. Patience my friend, that's all you need. And im just a call away, you know that. :) Lets talk about friends in general, shall we? From the moment you learn to say hi to a stranger, a new friend found. Up till now, im sure your circle of friends have widened. That's where groups come in. Different group of friends have their pros and cons and individual have the right to choose whichever group they feel belong to. You cant criticise them just because you're not their number one. A true friend should understand how u feel or what u're thinking even without telling. Sometimes, having just a friend is better than to have a group of them with you. Like they say, its the quality that matters, not the quantity. I shall strongly agree to that.. I do appreciate having loads of caring loving friends around me but sometimes, i just need one whom i can really confide in. Words are not necessary. By just being there for me to lean on is more than enough. Well, you know who u are but i want a bf still! hahaha.. Woman! Im missing you!!! Date me out before leaving for Paris ayte! "...The beauty of life does not depend on how happy you are, but on how happy others can be because of you..." Yes, im more satisfied making someone else happy, than to be happy myself. For those who have been making me smile, thank you! Oh yes, Md Aljufri, thank you for noticing the frown and gently reminded me to smile. I did, instantly. :) I wanna be a bride please! Being at a wedding ceremony urge me more of getting a bf. Ok, we can skip the bf part. I wanna get married to a rich gorgeous young man!! The couple today was oh-so-sweet, i wish i could be likewise. Ok, shut up GF! "...but sir, i forgot how to be romantic...". Indeed. Sometimes, i felt like im too cold. Maybe to avoid from getting hurt OR im just plain mean. oh well... I think its better than to be taken advantage of (for being nice). So, that's herdiana for you. Happy belated 17th Birthday Nadiyah! Ok, this is sooo yesterday but im gonna blog it anyway so that in ten years time, when i read back my old posts, i'll remember that Shane was once rich! haah.. One saturday, after i got home for at least 10 mins, Shane called to ask if i could accompany him to get his sports shoe. I was tired then but i went anyway. And im glad i did. We had ice cream dessert with 6 diffrent flavours with mango syrup and strawberries. yummmmmy! The best part was, its on him. Afterwhich, we decided on watching 'made of honour' after having the convo of wanting to catch that show. And i forgot that weekends = $9.50. I gave him the shock face but i took the tix and thank him. Hoho. How often can u get Shane to pay for u? Seized the opportunity baby.. hahah! kidding! i guess. :) A show that u should not watch with your best guyfriend but wadahell. Not as if there's anything going on between the two of us. Like i said, all i could think of when im with him is how can i kill him in the most annoying way. Met Gerald outside the theater and he thought we are together. Why would he? then again, who doesnt? Come on lah people! Its Shane we are talking about. haha! Nevertheless, its nice to spend the day with my bestfriend. Shane! I want those shoes. I need to run! oh, yes, our feet are of the same size. Its not that mine's huge ok. He has retarded feet! :) Today's the worst debating meeting by far. Ur lucky i wasnt in a foul mood. I do appreciate the suggestions given and all but sometimes, u guys are going too far. Lets just take one step at a time, shall we? And please, try to listen to others if not me. How would u feel if whenever u try to speak, u'll get interrupted by others. Im open to all suggestions but at the end of the day, i have to make the decision and get things organized. So please help me. I dont wish to blow my top each time we gather for meetings. One person in foul mood is bad enough. I dont want others to feel likewise. Like today, we have a few people who arent happy with how u do things. But then again, none of ur group members like u. So i cant blame u for that. Sorry for being such a bitch. But u'll see more of it if u keep insisting on doing things ur way. Today ive learned managing change. Ur attitude will eventually change after u have consistently behave in a certain manner. I need to keep on smiling and be happy so as not to be the pms girl i once was. Trust me, u wont want that to happen. Do me a favour. If anyone of u see me frown, gently remind me to smile. hahah.. My sis just got the macbook but its sooo confusing. I'll stick to my pc for the time being till i get the hang of it. Happy Birthday Kai Rui! HAppy Belated Birthday Joy! Happy Belated Birthday Azwan! Oh oh, this is sooo nice and im so touched, i felt like crying.. hhehe.. anw, ur welcome. I need u too ok.. ur making stupid faces is actually helping me go through this shit. hahah.. "...i wont ever forget this day.i know,diana knows and shane knows why... :)) thanks,u two for making that night a memorable 1 for me.. jub,rick and shane said he's ugly.but diana said its just that i saw something in him..you know me too well, girl.ThankYou diana! thank you for everything... :)) and so from friday onwards, me and diana just cant stop smiling...she's getting my disease already la..lolxxx!......i just need diana,rau,syaza n aljufri in this class.the rest p matieeeee suda..heeeee... :)))....." HAHA! Evil! but i love u still! Till then, tc loves. A night to remember! No doubt. I was supposed to go for my 9am lesson on friday but the bus took so long to arrive and my stomach was churning which then led me home. Decided to attend lab at 12noon and only leave the house at 11am when Rafta pestered me to go to school earlier to accompany her coz she went to school but was late for lecture, so she didnt attend. One hour wasted. Just when i was about to leave the house, i recieved a message saying that lab was CANCELLED! My first thought was," Rafta is sooo gonna scream". True enough! hahah.. Went over to her place to deal with FYP stuffs. Rushed home to get ready for jam and hop. Im sooooo glad i went for the event. So was Rafta. She got a picture taken with her dream guy who reacted sheepishly and i didnt know i had the courage to call him over, infront of his friends. But after asking him a question, i ran off, leaving Rafta alone to deal with it. hhaha.. And then, i saw him!!! ouh so cute! I realised he was there when i bumped into him while dancing. When Rafta and Shane called him over for a picture taking, i wasnt prepared. And his friends were hooligans!!! I swear i was blushing. And i didnt expect him to want to dance with me. When Shane mentioned, i stiffened. And he(shane) just had to make it worse by grabbing Rafta and pulled her away, not giving me the chance or time to think or react. With no choice left, i turned around, and there he was, coming towards me and then going backwards, excpecting me to go over. I stopped and literally said, "i dont wanna go there", innocently. Not when im surrounded by his friends. They freaked me out. Ok, so i suck at dancing. But at that moment, i just forgot how to move and i kept turning around, talking to Shane when he's not even looking at me. IDIOT! Had a short convo with him, and thats it, coz his friends were calling him for some reason. Or maybe i was sooo bad that he found me boring and decided to leave. hahah.. Up till now, i still cant stop smiling. After which, met up with happy gang to celebrate Azwan's birthday. There's always a first in everything and i wont forget that either. What i didnt expect was for u to react that way. Omg! U said,"show ur true colours". Was that necessary? Nevertheless, i was super-duper happy that it happened, for some reason. And no, its not what ur thinking GF. Help me! I just cant stop myself from remembering the whole event and i will continue smiling, or worse, laughing even in public. HELP!!! SHANE!!! I want the pictures!!!! My comp is being such a bitch. Still is. Sorry for the long absence. I need MONEY!!! A week of school with no money in hand. Its soooo sad ok. Cheeky monster is cheekier by the days. Im screwed for not being organized. Period. As soon as i stepped out of my house, i regretted of what i was wearing. Im like too dressed up for a normal day to school. Oh no! The belt and the earrings. I dont feel like a student. But then again, i look like a girl!!! Woohooo! But Rafta just had to spoil my mood by wearing something similar. haha.. yes, AGAIN!  see what i mean.. it wasnt planned!  honestly, that's how we usually stand and its actually very comfortable and stable! hehe.
Ive yet to finish up my slides for thursday's ica, find an article about smoking, gather info from other sub groups, decide on whos doing what, read and write an individual report on the article chosen by frida, bla bla bla.. So many things to do in such a short time but im planning to catch a movie with Rafta after this. And to finish up my korean show at home. Please tell me im doing the right thing :)         Ok bye! My computer broke down for some reason. But then again, i think i know why. Must be from my brother's curiosity about girls, sex, tits and dicks. Bloody annoying lah!!!! Hes corrupting my computer. And we are not talking about being a teenager ok. Hes getting married soon lah! I realised whenever my computer breaks down, its when i really need it for projects. "...can someone fix the comp! I need to use it for project URGENTLY!..." I know its cliche but whatever..its true! Being the one who always get the last minute stress due to the amendment of slides, i really need the comp. Can someone please be my saviour! Oh! I cannot believe what i just did and agreed to. Im the freaking 'project manager' for my fyp and mind u, the whole class's life is in my hand. One wrong move, that's it. Furthermore, we have to present it to secondary school students. Meaning, its not only within the classroom or lecturer-to-students kinda thing. Ok, im so dead!!! Every blog i visited, there must be one entry about mother's day. If u show ur love to ur mom everyday, mother's day is just another day. Mother, till i get my pay,ur present is still on KIV ok! haha.. n NO! I refuse to get u that smelly perfume. :) Why is it so difficult to get over u when getting over someone is my forte? Did u cast a spell on me? I hope not. I really need to draw a line. Its not ur fault. Its just me. My brain tells me to let go but my heart seems to not think likewise. I know korean shows are bad for my health (haha) but the temptation is unavoidable. See the link? no? Try again...booohoooohoooo... i miss u.. Rafta Aliya...              I am so thankful that shes in the same class as me. Seriously, if shes not around, i'd die of boredom. Totally. As irritating as she can be, shes still there to listen to me whinge, complaint, vent my anger, mock at others (ok, i know its bad but it cant be help sometimes). Somehow or rather, we always think similarly that its kinda annoying at times, especially when its about clothes. Its easy to have someone who has the same 'taste' as u when it comes to buying of clothes but when we ALWAYS coincidentally wear the same outfit? Yes, tell me about it. Its funny initially but subsequently, u'll find it weird and embarrassing. Others might think we plan on the everyday outfit but no! So, now that we are more aware, we'll tell each other of what we'll be wearing before leaving the house. In case of any similarities, one of us will change. Troublesome but at least it saves us from being mocked at.Anyway, its amazing at how our eyes communicate effectively. Even without saying it out loud, we managed to send the message across. When that happens, either we'll laugh/giggle or roll our eyes, depending on the situation. And we both have the same 'bgr' problem. So, confiding in each other is rather useless. :) On a lighter note, im just glad we are friends. Thank you. Oh gosh! The drama, the tears, the confusions, the busybodies, the calls, the msges... Interesting? Sort of, to a certain extent. But i just wish u broke off with him so that u can be with us. Find fault! find fault! hehhe... Sometimes, u just need someone to talk to or at least to just give a listening ear. But as for me, i just need someone to embrace me tight, without saying a word. That would be nice. -hehehe- My friend, u chose this path when u could have gone the other way. Just so u know, come what may, we'll be there. With one call, 4 of us will appear before u. :) Cheer up and goodluck! The stress level is still managable until u realise the expectation of someone is higher than what u expect. Ok, i should be feeling stressed up. But somehow or rather, im still 'chilling', so to speak. Shit!! I think i should start exercising! U'd be surprise at how huge my ass is now. And no, its not nice. Dont even think about it! I wouldnt expect yesterday to happen. Nevertheless, it felt good to be able to help. Though we had to do nothing and our movements got restricted(somehow), twas exciting. For the first time, i was the 'host' for such gathering with the usual gang, freely! Lets do it again!!!(errr..minus the emotional part pls!) When i witness the heartbreaking moments, im glad im not in a relationship. But then again, i wish i am... I dont understand how people can react or move in such SLOOOOW manner. Like really slow. Imagine, u just have to turn ur head to one side and it takes 5 freaking seconds! With that amount, i can run out of my room, grab a piece of tissue and run back in. Imagine watching a movie with that kinda effect for the ENTIRE show. If i were to hold on to the remote control, i'll fast foward. OMG! Seriously, singaporeans cant direct a movie, especially those with english as the main language. So, ive made 2 points here: slow actions frustrates me and local movies waste my 10 bucks! I swear in the mid afternoon when i was contemplating on what to do, whether to go out or not, what should i wear, in the middle of all that thoughts, i just wish i have someone whom i can spend my day with, without roaming around this uninteresting island. Just sit and have a good laugh, watch the sunset and then star gazing. Wouldnt that be nice? hmmmm... when will that day come.. Ive always hated being compared. Why compare when u know every individual is different. Ive always been compared with that old woman eversince i had my own mind. And thats sucky! So please, u can criticise me, but dont compare. Im missing the people who can make me smile even without trying. Please come back, coz i need to fill the emptiness in me. How often can u get ur friend to fetch u and send u home when they are not on the way? I seized that opportunity.. That's the beauty of having friends who ride and have a good heart(yea, like whatever). I have a friend who sacrifice his slipper just to send me home. Awwww... hahaha! Thanks ar bro.. :)  School started at 0800hr today when its supposed to be at 1300hr. Lunch was fun coz i got to shout while playing medal of honour with Rick n Syaza. And i suck at it. Group meeting was confusing. I dont understand why these people couldnt get what i meant after explaining for the first time. They object to what i said and explained their points when both of us had the same concept. Super frustrating ok! Explaining repeatedly in a manly voice in between coughs was difficult. Oh well, at least ive done my part.    Slacked at gf's till late(that's why i asked my friend to fetch). And gf had corn on her foot. I voluntered to dig it out for her but she refused. Where's the trust woman!?! LETS GO BATAM AND SHOP!!!!!!!  Im still sick! Happy 3 months old, Amsyar darling!
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