Speechless.

I dont have a word to describe how i felt at that moment. Or maybe i do.

Hurt. Shocked. Disbelief. Angry. Confused.

I really have no idea what you were thinking, seriously. Im still mad at you. But as much as i hate you for acting that way, i miss you. I miss you a hell lot.

So i keep asking myself. Is it worth staying if something like this would happen again? Everytime i think of you, my heart aches. And its just frustrating to wanting to cry but refusing to.

I wish things were different. I very much want to hug you, but should i? What you did was not up to my likings and i have my reasons. And i didnt expect anyone to listen to me.

Hmm.. whatever. I give up.

We were supposed to give her a surprise, Which only ended up me getting the surprise. Im not sure what u guys were thinking. U might think im making such a big deal when i juz hung up the phone but honestly, i was freaking hurt. Though it was a last min prep, u could have at least update me way before. You make me feel like an outsider. I dont care if u think im being an atittude bastard, but for now, i wouldnt want to talk to u guys.

Till then...