Things at work can be so shitty and at the end of the day, you just wish you could sleep and dont care about the world. But the first thing that came into my mind, was to meet up with you. If only i knew...

Time and again, i asked myself. How long would i want to stay in that ward, or for that matter, in that hospital? Sometimes, its just too much to handle. And some people can be so freaking unappreciative. If you think u're good enough and would be able to give service from the heart, why dont u try using your brains and shut your bloody mouth and take up nursing. Its easy for you to say. f*ckd up bitch.

It doesnt pay to be nice. Or maybe, i should just be mean.



Thank you helmie, fathiah and hafiz for the 3d2n. I had fun. And i finally swam in that pool after much contemplations, even after we checked out and i had to rinse myself at the open shower and changed in the non ventilated toilet with no mirror and you two had to wait for me under the hot sun, with the heat that made you sweat like crazy. Of course, to you, for swimming with me.



And while swimming, i realised my boyfriend could swim, even if its for a short distance. hehe.. But he'll suffocate himself soon if he's still refusing to lift up his head and breathe. More lesson needed k mie? :) Nevertheless, im still proud of you honey-bunny. wooohooooooo!!!!




Thank you for being there with me through out, even when i didnt treat you well. Happy 11th. ily.

"...The smile on your face, lets me know that you need me. There's a truth in your eyes, saying you'll never leave me. The touch of your hand, says you'll catch me whenever i fall. You say it best, when you say nothing at all..."


Cant believe that ive actually told mama about him. And somewhat, it came out naturally. It was planned, but natural. Get it? And i cant believe even more when she appeared sexcited, oppss.. i mean excited that i have gotten myself a boy-friend, coz she thinks that im too fierce to have one.

"...but he got tell u before that he likes u or not.. that he wants to stead with u..."

STEAD? Ma, its 2010. That was so pri school.

Oh mother... :)

What happened tonight was a coincidence. Mother nature just felt like pouring down heavy droplets right after he dropped me off. He was stuck. And mama was walking home from mak's place. And so.. they've met.

Hey u, now u know how terrifying it can be. I was nervous too, but thank goodness, it went well.

We dont have to hide or run away anymore, though that was me.. :)

You and I must make a pact, we must bring salvation back
Where there is love, I'll be there
I'll reach out my hand to you, I'll have faith in all you do
Just call my name and I'll be there

I'll be there to comfort you,
Build my world of dreams around you,
I'm so glad that I found you
I'll be there with a love that's strong
I'll be your strength,
I'll keep holding on

Let me fill your heart with joy and laughter
Togetherness, well that's all I'm after
Whenever you need me, I'll be there
I'll be there to protect you, with an unselfish love that respects you
Just call my name and I'll be there...

You have proven to me that ur not all strong and insensitive. For that, i thank you for showing me your true self.