Gawd, i feel like a selfish bitch. but what should i do? I wanna be there for u. But its difficult. Why isit happening?

As soon as u told me, my mind went, blank! Ive got nothing to expect, seriously. Alot of things kept running through my head. I cannot imagine how u feel, whats going through ur mind. But i do know, its far worse than mine. I know i haven been that supportive as how i said i would. Its difficult, really. Im just trying to avoid the negative thoughts. And i doubt things will be the same after this.

Like i said, im scared for me, im scared for you, im scared for us.

Im just praying things would get better.

Im sorry.