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After three days of sleepless nights, ok fine, i dozed off 2-3hrs, only, its over! I can now sleep peacefully without having to wake up and rush through those slides just so i could figure out some creative answer for the lecturer. I HOPE to pass every module. What if there wont be any supp paper for us? Shit! Please let the hitting-of-the-book-onto-my-forehead-while-i-was-reading-the-notes-lying-down-and-half-asleep somehow help me one way or another. There's so many things i wanna type out so that in ten years time, when i read the entries, it brings me back certain memories. But i cant seem to put those feelings and thoughts into words. Life before today has been hectic and tiring but whenever people asked, "how are you?", the only polite, reasonable answer i could give was, "im fine". NOT! Looking back, i couldnt believe that ive actually went through all those shit and im still surviving. At one point, i just felt like quitting, but quitting when u're almost done was kinda retardedly stupid. But then again, people make stupid decisions everyday. K, random. I cant believe i wont be seeing nr0626 anymore. Ok, i dont really care about the whole class but not seeing my subgroup members? that's awfully saddening lah. With them, ive lost my temper. With them, i got to enhance my 'creativity'. With them, i can be such a baby. And i wanna thank them for taking care of me, helping me, for being understanding, having that 'dont worry, be happy' attitude and loving me. I was just asking myself the other night, "So, what now? What am i gonna do after this?" I see some of my friends not getting any job after they graduated and that's scary. Still contemplating, hospital or scdf? I know its bad to do what i did but its just so tempting to find out what's going on in your life. And the minute i read all those words, i regretted. Coz its such a turn off and disgusting and stupid and URGH! How could you? You do know its wrong to be doing what ur doing but why are u still doing it? You are someone we respect but eversince ur behaviour changes, all the respect and trust are gone. Ok, maybe there's some respect left but the trust, its all gone. How would u expect us to not treat u that way when u are not behaving like someone u should be? Dont think just because we disagreed on that person, we approve of the other. In fact, we strongly disapprove on the one whom u call 'the first love'. Gosh, ive yet to share all the informations ive gotten with sister. Shes gonna freak out. Why is it happening to us? How i wish YOU are here with us.... |
