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Zhengyi*
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Ive always wondered what will happen to me in the next few years? Will i change in terms of behaviour and attitude, be it better or worst? Will i forget or neglect my friends? Will i have any friends? WILL I HAVE A BOYFRIEND?? I hope so...hee.Sometimes, we shouldn't think of the future cause its unpredictable. Its also dangerous in certain ways. But will i be prepared when something happen if i don't?? Will there be someone to console and tell me that 'everything's gonna be alright'? Will there be someone that i can rely on? I do, for now. But im just afraid we might not stay in touch even though we say we will and promise not to forget one another. But we're gonna be busy with out own life in future. Can we still be as close as now? Honestly, only this person can make me feel good whenever i am down. I wonder how its been done. My mind will be at ease after a talk with the person. It don't have to be a long compo. Just by saying, 'its ok.. everything's gonna be fine' kinda thing can already lighten my day. But im afraid if i were to lose this friend of mine one day, will i ever get a replacement of that kind? Will i be comfortable with the new friend? Can the person really understand and feel the same way as i do?Im just afraid it may happen one day.. I wanna thank these people who are close to my heart, for helping and being understanding. I really do treasure our friendship-: Edwin- U've been a great friend since the day i knew u. That's why u are special to me. U've been a great help whenever im troubled. I really do cherish everything that u've done for me. Its the calmness in ur tone that made me feel secure. U ARE a great friend indeed, no doubt. Well, who says u've got no friends who cares for u? There's lots and u only have to open up ur tiny eyes and ur 'covered-with-hard-shell' heart to know the people who cares for u. So dont keep saying life's unfair or its just ur luck to be born in this world with this kinda situation. Life's full of ups and downs. Its not perfect. So u have to have the courage to face the obstacles. Have faith in urself and u will be able to see rays of light shining in ur life. There's hope b. I believe u can do it. There must be a reason behind everything that has happened. So hold ur head high k b. Naqiah- I've seen u grow frm a cute lil innocent looking angel to an oh-my-goodnesss bitchy monster. hahha.. U are the very few people that can make me smile and laugh when i wasnt in the right mood. Bloody hell.. How did u manage? Oh well, im glad u could. And that makes u special. Even how hard i tried to hate u coz ur so bitchy and irritating and everything, no doubt i still love u.. hahha.. U've seen most of me and i really do appreciate ur patience and kindness and everything after all these years. Ur just like a sister to me. Im so glad we had this kind of friendship. No regrets. Hey.. I WANT UR BAKAL MATAIR!!!! hahha... Handsome banget deh. Words cant explain much on how happy i am to have u around. And i hope, even without stating.. u understand what i mean right? U must understand..i dont care. I just hope when we start with our new life in poly, we dont forget each other. Make sure we meet up as often as possible. Well, hey, if there's misunderstanding or whatsoever between us throughtout our friendship, i apologise. Love u loads girlfriend. Hidayu- I've seen naqiah grow..but i've seen u changed. OMG!!! U should recall how u were like during ur sec 1 days. The tom-boyish u..The one with short hair, long skirt and always go around laughing or smiling..(oh well, that didnt change) But look at u now.. da macam pompan.. hahha.. U look like a girl now. U even put on make up and nail polish by urself when 2 years ago, we had hard time putting on the eye-liner for u. No need to mention how long u took to put it on urself. U even thought of rebonding ur hair now.. That bushy hair or urs... Im proud of u..hahha.. But still.. for the past years..things happened. And i don't want u to repeat those mistakes again. I am sure ur matured enough to think what's good for u.. aight? Darn.. Now i won't have a laughing partner.. Our laughter has always been contagious. I can no longer make the stupid faces that only u and naqiah can see.. (oh gosh... those horrible faces...) And i wont have someone saying " kau kan lawa..."anymore.. hahha.. That's ur speciality..make me (and naq) feel good..not sayng the 'lawa' part.. just generally.. All ur nonsense..naive question and all.. Im so gonna miss all that. If there's any misunderstanding or i was harsh towards u or anything throughout our friendship, i apologise. U should know that i just want the best for u.. I just hope u still remembere those advices we gave. Please dont make those mistakes again k.. Love u too girlfriend... Joy- we've know each other for quite sometime but something in u that attracts me.. Ur sweetness and cuteness.. U used to be so bubbly and its easy to have a talk with u at that moment.. but now..u seems so far away.. Maybe im not in that school anymore but that's not it... Its just that oh well..i dont know. Nevermind.. Maybe ur just busy. But do keep in contact ok.. Im gonna miss u.. and im sure pinky will too... Shane- Ive known u since like forever.. Those days that we had to do that stupid dance wearing shiny gold costume. Damn.. horrible. We grew up together(not literally) in sec school..mayb u dont grow that much lah.. but ur just like one of my girlfriend. Wait..not saying ur one..a girl i mean.. But the way i treated u wasnt like how i treated my other guy friends.. With u.. i heck care man.. dont give a damn.. agree..? U've seen the worst in me.. hahha.. And till now..ur still the only guy who ever came over to my place as u like.. My mom dont even care.. I dont bring guys home ok.. Well..maybe u r not a guy.. that's y..hahha.. relax lah..alamak.. Im sorry u have to go through the stupid papers again.. Do come to us if u need any help k.. Dont shut urself up.. We'll be there for u.. i promise.. Yup..these are the people i turn to when i feel like shit! Im missing them already. Just hope they'll be touched, just like how they've touched me. Love u all.. As we go on, we remember.. All he times we, spent together.. And as our life change, from whatever.. We will still be..FRIENDS FOREVER!!! Another tiring day... I was awaken by efiza's phone call early morning but knowing me, i slept again. The next thing i knew, it was already 1130. Darn! We were supposed to meet at 12. Took my shower, changed andwent off at 1220, since fiza said we'll meet up at 1230. Phew! I walked to Bedok interchange.Damn the weather was humid. Once i reached inter, i was sweating like a pig! But as usual, i act cool. hahha.. Soon lisha arrived. While waiting, efiza called, telling us to go to a place where she'll pick us up by car(shes not the one driving, mind u) BUT Dina wasn't there yet. Waited for almost 15 minutes before she arrived. Bought Julie's present and took the bas to parkway. Bought some stuff before heading to the beach. Damn the weather was freaking hot. REached there, changed and then jumped into the sea before proceeding with our training. Dancing in the water/by the shore was not easy i tell u. Its either we fall when the wave hits us or we slipped or whatsoever. Then we tried on the smooth sand. Worst, very slippery. People were watching us but we dont give a damn. Luckily we were accompanied by the song or we'd look like idiots dancing on the sand... Dancing on the rough floor was no better but we had no choice. Cant do some steps cause it'll be painful. Bla bla bla... Oh, did i mention we took lots of pictures? No? Oh..ya, we did. Bla bla bla... At 6, we walked all da way to the clean toilet, clean ourselves, changed and headed to Julie's picnic area to celebrate her birthday. The first cake was delicious. Lime-mango ise cream cake frm swensens. The second cake was nice too but we didnt eat it. Instead we smashed it into julie's face. Poor girl. she looked horrible. hahha.. Efiza's dad send us off by car. Thank goodness cause my legs were killing me. Got home, watched tv and then went online, up till now. Its 0330am nw. Oh well, gdnight. You have no idea of how exhausted i am. I've been running about the whole day and its no fun at all, trust me. I had to work frm 8-4. Went off an hour earlier so that i can collect my medical report from SATA. Went there together with hakim. Then, dropped by at NTUC to buy DOVE shampoo, conditioner and moisturiser. Along with Johnson's baby milkbath. I smell good man. REALLY LAH!!! Smell me if u don't believe. Coincidentally, mama called and asked me to buy her cabbage, green vege and tomatoes. I somehow looked like a working woman. To make it worst, i was wearing dress and cardigan. So the office type. WADAHELL! Afterwhich, i walked home, carrying the 3 heavy plastic bags, under the hot sun and the weather was humid, very humid. Once i reached home, took my shower and damn i smell nice, changed and went out for my malay dance pratice at fengshan cc. Training today was tiring cause we started with the fast part.But that doesnt mean we can relax during the slow part. That's worst cause we have to control our movements, bend our knees. Show the elegance yet there's still firmness. At 10pm, cabbed to downtown east for ming han's birthday 'party'. Didnt eat cause no appetite. (ooppsss..that reminds me i have not taken my medicince.) nevermind... we didnt stay for long to witness the birhday bash though. at 1245, we made a move. cabbed home with dearest xuan yu. Stopped at a place where both have us had to walk quite a distance, especially me. REached home around 1 + am. Im super tired now. Legs are killing me. There's still training tomorrow. Guess where?? EAST COAST beach. We are going to practice by the shore. That's gonna be tough. DARN!!! Ok BYE Oh..HAPPY 19th BIRTHDAY MING HAN!! Damn it..!!! Its not been updated. I posted an entry last week through my phone but it didnt appear. Nevermind. Lots of things happened to me for the past few weeks but im not going in detail. Oh well, I got into NYP-nursing! ya ya...SAy all u want. I dont give a damn. Its my choice, not urs. So, shut the F**K up! Ermmm..At this point of time. i cant think much. Im sick!!! And its nt good ok when ur working with kids and ur sick. Plus, its the hfmd season now. Wadahell!!! Nd extra precaution. I cant slp and its like 2 am. Im working tmr ok. URGH! Talked to my baby about some stuff. I hope u understand ok b. Just remember, come what may, i'll be there. No worries. Love u lots... Im going to end my 3 months contract with the PCF sooon.......!!!! Its so sad ok. THey are like my second familiy already but still, i have to part with them . Oh my babies.. dont forget about ur Teacher Diana ok! The one who always eat the fake food u gave. Gosh im gonna miss that. I want to force myself to sleep. Shit!! i haven iron my oh-i-dunno-what-clothes-to-wear. I think i better sleeeeeeep now. Gd nyd hunny-bunny! |
