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 %20(1)1.jpg) That's us..those who were attached to bedok poly. Trust me, we are all NICE and FUN people. hehhee.. was told that we were the MOST cheerful group cos the rest before us were all very stern.. BORING!!! SO anyways, polyclinic attachment was boring at first but we got used to it and the people became friendlier and stuff. SO its not that bad. The sisters were great. One busied with her phone. Too bad i cant fix her phone. I think she'll remember me as 'the phone lady'. The other one always had the i-have-to-do-work kinda look but on the last day when we called her up to take pictures, shes so into it. And her sexy pose..oh my god..melt us... hahha.. kidding ar sister.. :) Its been 2 days since the 2nd semester started and i wont be surprise if sooner or later i'll be sitting for my semestral exam. There's so many things to learn with so little time to spare. And that scares me.. NEtball has been.. alright. Truth be told. Sometimes i dont feel belonged in that team. There's so many people im still afraid of. Coach, for sure, stella, jinquan,kim and some others. I dont know why im afraid of these people. Im always afraid if they dont like me. I want to talk to them but its always at the wrong time and i dont dare to speak to them again. That's just me. Maybe one day i'll try again.. Oh, about not feeling belonged..maybe i've always been in the main team since pri school and i get to participate and all but now when im in the second team, there's nothing much i can do and sometimes i just feel that people look down on me.. Its a sucky feeling ok! Maybe because im always at the top and when i fall, i fell hard. I'll try to stand strong though. haiz.. Saw Edwin today at bedok mrt. Wasnt sure if thats him. HE looked different yet he still look the same. But its him lah coz when i called his name, he turned. We were so close the last time but now, things aint the same anymore. Im busy with my stuff and he's busy with his. I feel so bad when he told me those stuff. NOt that i do it on purpose. Sorry b.. But i dont feel u either.. Its sad to see us drifting apart but that's how life is..we still have to move on. I just wish we can be like how we used to be.. but please bear in mind that u'll always be in my heart and mind.. believe me.. Some people dont talk to me already..i dont know what i've done wrong.. Whatever it is..im sorry. I miss my friends who are taking their O's soon. I dont wanna bother them now.. HOpe u guys do well in ur exams and we'll meet up soon k. All the best! Ive not seen my gfs for sooo long. One got grounded and the other, cant go out as much. SHe has a boyfriend..and im happy for her.. HOpe she's doing fine.. just miss her alot. I dont know..sometimes i may appear happy, always smiling.. but when it struck me.. i can go all emo. And i do have my reason why im behaving oddly. I just hope my friends can understand. Its so difficult to live without someone u love and the kind of environment im in.. always reminds me of him. Whatsmore hari raya approaching.. i think its gonna be like what happen the previous year.. i missss him alot.i longed to hear his voice but i just cant. HOw i wish he could appear in my dream and talk to me..The thought of him always make me shed my tears.. I should have treasure him more.. But there's no point regretting now.. it serves no purpose.. To whoever reading this, please treasure ur loved ones. U never know what's gonna happen next.. i miss u..i want u..i need u.. |
