hmph.! mayb i shud juz fergt abt it..lyk juz go wif da flow..ya..and its lyk if doing so in da past were possible.. y nt nw? interfering wun make it werk...its juz making it werst.. i duno if em doing da right thing..it seems lyk em chasing sumthing bt it keeps running away. sumtyms, em tired of it and dats da pt of tym i wish to give up bt giving up wun solve da prob. i tried bt always failed to make it bttr. mayb i shud juz give it a rest and stp making da fers move.. i believe dat if its meant to b mine..it'll cum to me one dae..waiting is da most torturing thing to do bt if i've gt no choice..i'll wait...

noeing abt d air leak..it shivers me. it makes me feel werst fer da torture.. em sorry..i've caused u pain..

fer nw..i shud juz stp thinking..i shud hav done dat long ago.. ok, i managed bt sumtyms it cums naturally. fasting month is approaching..i dun wanna imagine how da situation will b lyk at home wen its tym fer us to break fast..esp da begining of da fasting month and d end..i bet she'll b crying most of da tym..who wun..mayb i will too.remembering da moments we had..really breaks ma heart..dis yr will b da fers tym we'll b celebrating wifout ma dad..ya..its tough..i noe..bt i dun wanna think too much coz dis yr em sitting fer ma important exam.. hmmm.. symtyms lyf aint fair fer me..