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On my last entry, i stated that i'd be on night and hope to have a good night, am i right? Well, it WASNT a good night at all!!! Im so used to doing stuff nurse job that when i had to do junior work, i got lost. Its not that im not sure of what im doing, im just not sure how to manage my time. :( But thank you nisa and dayang for being patient with me. I knew i passed over like shit. Sorry. And JB trip wasnt that fun either. I didnt get enough sleep the night before and the whole thing was terrible. Lunch and dinner were provided but we had to eat at petronas coz the restaurant wasnt halal. Paintball was fun but some people are just blind. 3 of my girls were down with faulty 'guns' and the game masters were checking the guns but those hooligans just had to shoot them. Post paintball, i sustained 2 injuries. One on my left shin, another on my non existing boobs. Go kart was fun but seeing nisa squeezed into her go kart was funnier. They wasted alot of time there. My whole body was giving up on me, i kept yawning and just wanted to go home. My wish came true at 2300hrs. Im in love with a cheecky boy :) Getting into a fight is part of being in a relationship, that's what people say. And its healthy. hmm.. Its tiring to try very hard to stay strong, that at times, i just give up and do what girls do best, cry. :) Its unintentionally, if u must know. Im a girl afterall. :) Nevertheless, ily. Being a nurse, u have to always be prepared: mentally, physically and emotionally. For example; Only a few days back, i wasnt incharge of the team, and i dont get much of that these days. It was a sudden change of assignment that i had to follow. And the best part was, im supposed to end work at 1430hrs. So, mentally and emotionally, im prepared. I had no idea what were the changes for the day. All i knew was that ive got 6 discharges. Yes, 6! Im prepared to help my incharge to discharge all those 6 patients. What im not prepared was, to suddenly be incharge of the team. You see, my incharge fell and fractured her coxxyc after lunch and was in severe pain that she had to go to A&E, approximately at 1300hrs. For nurses, you all know that 1300hrs is the crucial time. Ok, i dont mind passing the report for her and do all the discharges,but she havent even written a single report! OMG! Can u imagine how freaked out i was? With the help of my friends, i managed to finish everything by 1630hrs. So much for ending my work at 1430hrs. So u see, we must always be on the ball, just in case things like this happen. And who says all we have to do is to clean peoples' butt. How i wish its that simple. I'll be on night tonight. Dear God, please let the nice HOs be on-call tonight and please make tonight a good night. :) I cant wait for Saturday! A trip to JB with friends. Yayness! I realised, going out with juliana mesdi is very dangerous coz at the end of the day, we'll be carrying a couple of paper bags. Nevertheless, i had fun shopping with her. :)  A friend randomly called me up on a sleepy sunday morning for a match under 'Union' and we were representing cgh. Well, it was worth the effort coz we were the champion at the end of the day, with $1000 in hand. Like i said, always the smallest, yet the strongers :) Work has been ok, i guess. Managing. I shall not say i love my job, but i wont say i hate it either.  I havent been to changkat band ever since last year's SYF, that's like a year ago. Had a quick reunion with the alumni today. Didnt expect a big group though. Its like a class of alumni. Sadly, i had to rush off to work and missed out on the fun, again! :(  Emotions = roller coster.  Am i happy? Or am i just pretending? Happy 7th, not! Gawd, i feel like a selfish bitch. but what should i do? I wanna be there for u. But its difficult. Why isit happening? As soon as u told me, my mind went, blank! Ive got nothing to expect, seriously. Alot of things kept running through my head. I cannot imagine how u feel, whats going through ur mind. But i do know, its far worse than mine. I know i haven been that supportive as how i said i would. Its difficult, really. Im just trying to avoid the negative thoughts. And i doubt things will be the same after this. Like i said, im scared for me, im scared for you, im scared for us. Im just praying things would get better. Im sorry. |
