Rafta really surprised me the other day. She bought another bag after gotten a new bag the day before and i was like, "tsk tsk tsk". But as soon as she paid for it, she turned around to face me and, "nah, Happy belated birthday" Aaawww. Thanks darling. Twas unexpected. Instantly, i felt bad. Shit!

Have i ever mentioned that i used to hate those dark skin foreign workers? Coz i thought they are simply pervertic. However, nowadays, i sympathize for them. Have u ever looked into their eyes? Its so sad. No doubt they are still 'pervertic'. They are guys afterall, if u know what i mean. Oh yah, each time i look into their eyes, i feel sad for them. If not for them, we wont have nice places to stay in or a smooth road to travel on. I feel weird saying this but thats how i truly feel. Another group of people i cant face are the cleaners. Especially when they have just mopped the area and soon after, someone stepped on it. Id rather they scold then to have that particular look on their faces. Super poor thing lah. Regular human beings can be cruel and stupid sometimes.

I am embarassed by ur actions. What would others say if they see u in public? If u are not bothered by what others think, we are. Ur phone conversations disgust me ok, big time!

AZWAN CALLED!!! I was so excited lah! When the phone rang and i saw his picture, i picked up and screamed, "azwaaaaaaaaan" and he just had to do the army daze classic, "diannnnnnnna". Oh, hes so adorable. Its so nice to hear his voice lah. I swear his absence can really be felt. And im honoured to be the first person he called apart from his parents. He called to wish me happy belated birthday but i know he misses me. hahah.. No, im not thinking highly of myself, he did say he misses me. :) I cant wait for him to book out! NOTE: hes just a friend of mine.

I have been spending my money! Stop me please.

OH! I saw him again! hhehe.. ok rafta, u dont have to read this. haha.. Anway, when i stepped out of the lift, i saw someone familiar but it took me awhile (maybe about 3 sec or so) to register who he was. So i kept looking at him. Then when he looked down, i instantly looked away and thats when i remembered who he was. So embarrassing. But hes cute and tall. Period.

The familiar fragrance led me to thinking of u, yet again. And then i questioned myself if what i did was right. Needless to say, i still have no idea...

I miss my dad, alot.

Why does my subconcious mind always call for u? Even when i dont want to. From the day we found each other, ur name has always been at the back of my head. Why? Its not as if u are that special or good or funny or kind or whatever. Even after a long period of time, i still cant forget about u. Even after u did horrible things, i still cant get u out of my mind. I wish i never have to feel this way again.





Once in a while

You are in my mind

I think about the days that we had

And i dream that these would all come back to me

If only you knew every moment in time

Nothing goes on in my heart

Just like your memories

How I want here to be with you

Once more


You will always gonna be the one

And you should know

How I wish I could have never let you go

Come into my life again

Oh, don't say no

You will always gonna be the one in my life

So true, I believe i can never find

Somebody like you

My first love

To spend a day with all my close friends, what more can i ask?

School on friday was tiring. 9-10am lecture which i skipped in order to revise for my practical test, 10-11am tutorial, 11-12nn went to the lab to practice but was distracted by those who failed. The assessor was such a bitch! Anway, surprisingly, i was cool. I wasnt even nervous or scared while waiting for my turn. Strange. I managed to pass smoothly.

While heading for the school exit, Gf came into my mind. Guess what. Shes leaving SSDC in a few minutes. Met up with her and bus-ed to tampines. Later Ayu joined us. I think the last time i saw her was when she had short hair. haha.. Gfs, we are complete!
Met Rafta for phat night. Why didnt we inform e/o of what we're wearing!! It turned out to be similar outfit. Leggings, floral dress and the similar sandals.. Others might think we planned on what to wear when actually, this is all coincidental. As expected, phat night was boring (but we had fun bitching ard. haha). She was whinging coz Mr Z was nowhere to be seen. I did too. haha.. But as soon as we stepped onto the dancefloor, right behind Rafta, there he was. Lost in the world of his own. I wasnt excited to see him. Infact, it turned me off. Whatever, eh Raf! The girl was __________! haha.. Fathiah dropped by for awhile. Thats when Rafta noticed him giving me the second look. Yessa.. OH! Then while dancing to the 'dangdut' song, 2 guys came behind us n started dancing. First thing i felt was his stomach! WALAO! I literally moved away. Body language said, "get away u fat ass + bulging tummy + u think ur so hot but ur not" . Girls all around me did the sexy dance but i made a fool of myself with retarded dance moves. Who cares. I just wanna have fun with my gfs, not seeking attention from the guys just so they could touch my ass. Sorry dude. And the room was hot, smelly and suffocating. :(


Afterwhich, waved Rafta goodbye and met the boys. Went over to SMU but had a change of plan. Cut the smashed cake at 12am. Touched by the effort made, guys. The collage's beautiful. I just wished Azwan was there as well. :(

THANK YOU to those who remembered my birthday and made an effort to wish me via sms/friendster/msn. Love ya..

I was from a wedding ceremony. Hence, the outfit.



After all the brain stormings, confusions, arguments, bitchings, sarcasms, decision makings, react to changes up till the very last minute, the never ending pre survey discussions, liasing with other organizations and groups, the call after call to confirm certain things, the contemplations of whether to pick up calls from the 'oldies', the last minute decision to dance, the staying back after school or sacrificing our breaks just to practice the moves and on top of all this, theory exam, skill assessments, ICAs... FINALLY, it has come to an end. Oh, what a relief!

On tuesday, all of us were so uptight. Whats with the changes made by an organization, the last minute update from another organization, the almost done but not yet finished props, the flyers that were not pre publicized, the dance routine that was briefly choreographed but making sure that the message will be sent across (twas super last min, i swear), having to stay in school from 9am to 6pm and the late release because i need to confirm with everyone that everything is ready for the following day. Glad that everyone cooperate. I only managed to sleep at 4am.

The alarm went off at 0530am. Bugger! Bus-ed to yio chu kang and guess what, of all days to have morning rain, it had to be today. Those with bulky props and without umbrella, had to run to the main gate. Thats about 200m? WTH!

The setting up of booths, maze, deco and dolling up of the zombies got delayed coz they were having morning assembly in the hall. One word, RUSH (ing/ed). When the first batch arrived at 10am, all of us were not prepared. We were still cutting up the papers, pasting them, making the zombies look horribly disgustingly ugly (which really made an impact. When i tried the make-up the night before, i got scared myself). So yeah, time managment, BAD! Its not totally our fault ok. Oh, to make it worst, items were not delivered on time. We had to make do with what we have. And when they arrive, twas very disorganized. Again, it wasnt our fault.

she already look scary even without the make up
The first performance we did was greatly appreciated. The crowd's response was satisfying. And maybe because we had the energy and was enthusiastic about it. The comments given by lecturers esp that particular person, was positive and they really liked it. Im glad. Subsequently, we got tired and with a boring crowd, 4 minutes on stage was DREADFUL! But im proud of all the dancers who had made the effort to make this performance a success.

Though i didnt tend to any booth, maybe for a short while when the incharge went for her break, i was exhausted. Maybe mentally exhausted plus we had to dance a couple of times. And i felt bad towards the whole crew (nr092629) coz i wasnt of much help. Yet people are telling me i did a great job. That made me feel even guiltier. Many apologies guys.

Of course, none of these could have happened if it wasnt for grp 9 and 29's effort. Their contributions were huge that i dont know how to thank them. Its our implementation day, yes we joint forces but the out of campus project was basically ours and yet they took all the trouble to help us as much as possible. They have done alot for us. I hope on the 6th of Aug, we can help as much as possible in return. And again, instead of me thanking them, they thank me. WHY!!! Im seriously touched by their effort.

Throughout the whole journey, we have learned alot. And one thing for sure, we have created a beautiful friendship among the 3 classes, well at least to me lah. To Filiana and Kamariah, THANK YOU for everything. The small meetings we had, the quick updates, the frustration we felt together because of some people, the worries, the we-are-so-tired-but-we've-got-no-choice look, the shock upon hearing about someone was hospitalised, EVERYTHING! It was nice and fun working with the two of u. Kamariah, i just wish u were there so that we can smack each other's butt. Get well soon ok! Fi, ur motivations kept me going. :)

Oh, during the debrief, we were told to be the pioneer batch in doing an out of campus nursing project and it was good, well delivered and most importantly, the 'client' is satisfied. WOW! To think that i was the 'project manager' for such project. :) Of course, its not a 'one man' show. Without everyone's contribution and support, i wont be able to do it either. So, THANK YOU!
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THE CREW

GoodBye!

Im just glad its all over... No doubt, a day to remember... :)