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Ive always wanted to be in the situation whereby someone's giving birth and i'll be waiting anxiously outside the delivery suite. Somehow or rather today was not up to my expectation. In the first place, my sis wasnt supposed to be due until next week or so but she got hold coz of the calcium level = warded. That's the first shock. Secondly, we all including the doctor thought that its going to be tomorrow. Was at the hospital with mama from 1830 - 2100. Met abang and had our dinner at lucky plaza. At 2150, while walking back towards the hospital, i received a 'mms' of a picture showing a struggling 'bloody' baby. OMG!!! The four of us ran like there's no tomorrow. hahah.. So sis had a normal delivery done which she described the pain as if shes clearing her bowel. huh? Amsyar Afiq was born on the 30th january 2008 at 2150. Weight: 3.1kg. Errm.. that's all i know about him i guess.. ahah.. OH! The first look, all of us went, "..omg, he looks like MY brother!! flat nose, thick lips.. nothing like the parents..hahah.." But i was told he looks like his dad but seriously, i have no idea where the lips come from. haha.. Im dead! coz hes out! and how the hell am i suppose to study for exams??!! 
Im sooo proud of u sister!!! Hopefully, there's more to come. I love u.. I just dont understand why some people are over-excited. Gf, stop it! God sista.. ha-ha.. whatever! Mama said u should be god aunty instead. hahahaha... So far, its nt as bad as i thought it would be. I did great for bcls with the fact that i haven't eaten anything since i woke up and the practical was at 3pm. Surprised that the limited energy could sustain. I just need to pass my theory with not more than 4 mistakes to be qualified. Had my individual presentation today. Wasnt confident at all. Afraid i would fumble with my words. Through the presentation, i was shocked to hear my calm voice. Thanks to my 'main caregivers'. They lightened up the atmosphere. I did ok i guess. Oh, and u know what's funny? Comment given was.." blablabla.. u have a very soothing voice which will not threaten the family members or the patients...blablabla.." HAHAHA!! Are u kidding me? Soothing? Ok GF, u can stop giving me that sarcastic look and laugh. Ive just realised that yea, i do speak to my patients in that tone and manner but i cant seem to do that at home though. Speaking of home, I have no idea why i cant communicate with the rest of the family members without feeling like im forced to. Why oh why! I know its rude but i cant help it. That's why id rather not talk. This doesnt always happen though. I miss my dad. I miss having him around. I miss the smell of his armpit (really). I miss the way he call me. I miss the way he kiss me. I miss looking at him. i miss hugging him. I miss the warmth he gives each time i snuggle up next to him. I miss everything about him. The thought of him never fails to break me down. It has almost been 3 years yet i felt like he left us just yesterday. He's only 52 then. We didnt see it coming. If only he stopped smoking, i would still be hearing his laughter. Im not blaming anyone though. I just wish he could see me succeed, to be that proud father who could embrace me and whisper some encouragement and supoprt into my ear. The thought of not having a proper goodbye still haunts me. If only....  i miss u, abah.. School has been hectic. So dont even bother asking, "hey, hows school?" coz i'll have to punch u for that. Ok, so maybe just a little preview of what im about to face next week : mon- bcls(cpr) practical tue- individual presentation (which ive not yet started) wed- bcls theory thur- THANK GOD IM FREE fri- leadership (elective) theory So there. U've seen it. Try to be understanding if i were to scream at u for no apparent reason. :) Remember my annoying sister? Yes, that one. Shes giving birth any time soon. Maybe next week? Or the following week? I dont know. Im excited. Feel scared for her though. Hopefully the baby behaves when he's born. I'll have to tape his mouth if he were to scream day in day out. That will obviously affect my hello-im-doing-my-last-minute-study-for-exams-here. Ok, maybe i wont be that cruel. Maybe i should just lock him inside the storeroom. That'll work. -grin- Congrats to my niece for obtaining unexpectedly fantastic results for 'O's. For those who did not make it, do not give up. Its not the end and there's room for improvement. Hey, who says ITE is bad afterall? i miss u, yes i do u were there, but beyond reach i saw u looking, but unsure of the meaning behind that look how i wish... Loads has been happening lately. Ended my 3 weeks of kk attachment yesterday. Was quite an experiance, that's all i have got to say here. The rest will be kept in my memory box. Let's not talk about school or things related to school shall we? I dont like. Two weeks ago, gf called to ask if i could dance for her family day's event. I agreed. Had ample time to practice but until 2 days ago, Ella couldnt get another dancer. So the third dancer only had 2 days to learn and memorise the dance steps. U think its crazy? I think its still ok. I had done it in one day. Of course, i screwed up. haha.. Anyway, everything was last minute. The dance, the costume, the accessories, the make up. Managed to loan the costumes but it came with limited accessories. Amazingly, i made the decision on all the alternatives in the shop. Surprisingly, the end product was great. What u will see in the pictures are not in the original state. :) What about the dance u may ask? It was horrendous. haha..Its not the dance steps or the synchronization that was horrendous, ok, maybe just a little, but its the environment that made it worst. Nonetheless, we made it rather comical and enjoyable. At least the audience were entertained, unlike the other dance, i think. I am exhausted, but im happy. Enjoy!   i have no idea what's on my face. Its from the camera, i swear..     I was the last one to get ready and when we were asked to standby,i hadn't changed into the costume. Gosh, twas terrifying. Oh, after the make up, i did my hair n attached all the hair accessories and guess what? I forgot to change my top! ._____.   These guys were great. Their performance was really a HAHAHA one. 'cucu nenek'That was supposed to be one of the stupid ideas gf, but u took it!  Ella   i really forgot to un-zoom but i think its a nice un-zoomed picture. hehe..   That flower fell in the middle of the dance.   i look yuck-y with make up.  my non blood related nenek! gf.  haha.. as expected huh? haha.. cant resist the temptationlah..    gf's cousins      i love this like in the olden days   HAHAHA  retards  hey boys  i like the effect see that face, AGAIN! and AGAIN!  tourist eh? haha  dont worry gf, he'll come soon. :)   ella find it nice. huh?   back to the plain me. i couldnt stand the smell of the foundation and the long fake eye lashes.  toilet?    we never plan on the facial expressions but it has always been the same..   that was really the first yet it felt like years. very comfortable. ur breath, warm and moist. the smell of ur skin lingers on me nw... |
i carried him even before mama did. oppss..
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