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I didnt have that intention, yet u thought i had. I didnt react rudely, yet u thought i did. Whats ur problem? Sometimes or shall i say, all the time, i just wish Abah would still be here. At least he's always there to protect me. Wow, like im not aware that ur proud to have a beautiful daughter. U dont have to keep repeating u know. Its just so annoying. But when it comes to chores, u'll tell me, "oh, shes useless and all. Couldnt do this, couldnt do that". WHY? Its because u pamper her too much. Whose the one who follows u to the market or go down to the shop to buy stuff? Either me or abang. Who always iron ur clothes? ME! And just because she couldnt iron clothes, u let her go. And when she refused to do something that u askd her to, u didnt nag. Whereas when i delay my chores, u nag like as if i dont even wanna do. To think that u're not being bias, but its clearly shown. Why? It hurts to be treated this way. Though u may see things otherwise, but frm my point of view, thats what i see. I couldnt throw tantrum or shout back at u. All i did was to cry. But are u even aware? NO! I really hope abah's here with me.. I miss him terribly. Each time i think of him, my heart ached. I didnt get a proper goodbye from him, the last thing i did was to shout at him before he was down with stroke. He asked if i wanna eat and i gave him that tone. I know i shouldnt have. That was the last time i got to hear his voice. On the last day before he passed away, i didnt even see him to say goodbye, coz i thought there's always tomorrow. But i thought wrong.. He left me even before i could say sorry. Im sorry bah, i miss u.. can u hear me? How i wish i could see u, even if its in my dream.. How i wish i have a shoulder to cry on.... - Neglected
- Confused
- No mood
- Lonely
- Annoyed
- Just shut up please!
- Baby, where are you?
      Ok, i was bored. And i find the pictures kinda, ermm..nice? hahha.. Shut up! Theory exam tmr.. and as usual, i've not yet studied. Bye!
Seriously, how i wish i could turn back the time. U've changed. Why? U've grown and have ur own problems but 90% of the time, u're always troubled. I know u have friends whom u're close with and im glad but i feel neglected.. I dont wanna feel this way but it just cant be help. First of all, i PASSED my skills! YEY! I got catheterization and gloving. Phew! And i was so lucky to get a gd and kind assessor. I think i did quite well. I looked like an idiot though, talking to the 'patient' and smiling to her. I forgot 2 things. To open the syringes package and to place the drape before cleaning the perineal area. I was like, "oh my god!" I took the risk though. I used one hand to open the drape into rectangle shape and placed it carefully in between the legs without contaiminating the sterile field. ARGH!!! I think overall, i did fine. I miss u too..
Its a pity we are not of the same age. How i wish we could be in the same class..then we'll be super close. We are close now, but its just through words kinda thing. Forget it.. I wanna be pretty! Looking at how pretty others are, i feel so intimidated.. But i dont go for make up and stuff.. i go for simplicity.. Oh well, i'll just keep smiling.. ahhha.. ok bye!
Planned to study but since i was invited, its not very nice if u dont attend. Met faeezah and went to ghafar's place. Its a birthday thing. Haha.. I dont mean to laugh but the way u fall was so hilarious lah.. Im so sorry but i was shocked too. ahahh.. faeezah faeezah.. i think u should repair ur knees.. hahha.. stunt woman abes.. hahha.. ok2, i'll just put that at the back of my head. :) study! study! study!
 attending the first lecture for the day..  not aware of wads happening.. jub secretly captured this pic.. Rafta and i were gossiping i think.. :).jpg)  Raudhah's request..  At the end of the day...I know there's something to blog. i wanted to blog that just now but i clean forget! Damn! Anyway, i feel like a lady wearing that outfit though its super simple. Maybe because its pink and white, thats why. And there's lots of people wearing skirt today. Wassup with that? This is frustrating! I forgot what i wanted to blog! ouh, these are my 2 irritating juniors.. but i love them still.. 
and that's my baby.. I cant wait for tmr!!! I've bought this skirt from JB but couldnt find a suitable top. But i got it today!!! so, tmr, i'll wear them and omg, i look like a girl. Can i say i look sweet in it? ok, i really look sweet in it.. hahha.. :) And i shall behave myself.. maybe, just not to bring up my legs. Is that good enough? hahha... Oouuuhhh... I cant wait! I didnt roll my eyes on u.. I just didnt know how to react.. Ouh, i'll post the pics tmr, if there's any. :) Happy Birthday Joy!
  They are being so irritating. Anyway, school was ok. I just couldnt wait for the day to end coz i've planned with shane and faeezah to visit the band. I was so eager to meet them, especially my darling juniors : don, fabian and ayu. I really miss them. I can say they are the best juniors anyone could have askd for. Don and Fabian has their similarities. Ive been both their senior. I've seen how they've grown. For both, from quiet little boys who didnt talk much til i was bored coz i wasnt entertained to someone who cant stop annoying me! And im always the one who got trashed, by the two of them. GGRRRr... Nonetheless, i love them! really, i do. Im gonna miss them once they've graduate. To donny boy and stinko, u guys better not forget me, im warning u. :) should do some soul searching..
 So the ICA was alright for me. Was suppose to be a sad story but the whole class laughed. WADAHELL! So much for being 'depressed'. I was the jerk in that skit. How cool.. me, being a guy? omg! Nothing much happened today. Rafta and munirah took 45 home. Yoga was there. I swear hes funny man. Rafta and i couldnt stop laughing. He's really crappy k. I'd rather die than to be questioned by him. I duno how rafta could just go away with a smile. Oh, though i was tired yesterday, i have no idea why i go around smiling. Selina said, " why r u so gd today?" WHAT! U mean every other day, im not? Idiot!I think i should just go around, smiling, forgiving ppl. I think my friends would appreciate that. hahah.. Shut up! After rushing for the ICA, we're prepared for the presentation on monday morning, just to find out that its nt on monday but tuesday.. CRAP! I could have slept peacefully yesterday. I swear i couldnt keep my eyes open through out the day. I NEED MY SLEEP NOW! bye..
Its bn 14 days since my sis got married. Lots of things happened but im glad at the end of the day, it was a success. I HAVE A BRO-IN-LAW! Canu believe it. It aint that awkward though having him around the house. Only thing is that i cant go around the house, naked! hahha.. KIDDING! omg..Dont even think about it! :) School's been, ok. My stress level will increase from now onwards. With all the ICAs and attachments and EXAMs! Yes, the 'E' word. DAmn... Can i just get a bf and get married now? But he must be stable and rich and cute and sweet. CAn i? Can i? ok.. thank u..heehe.. Omg, i've been mean recently.. i just cant keep my mouth shut. Oh no.. I miss my gfs, but i've met them recently.. so it aint that bad.. but i miss my baby.. When was the last time we saw each other? That day when i went back to school? Even so, i wasnt in the best mood.. It hurts so much to see him troubled. But hey, i cant do anything.. and that's what hurt the most.. love u baby.. but of coz, i love everyone else too.. :) Guess who i miss the most.. My dad! :) ok bye...
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