I was wearing this t-shirt which says 'explain to me again why i need a boyfriend'..ANd this lecturer of mine, who's a guy, read it and said some stuff that i cant be bothered to listen. Well, maybe i know why i need a boyfriend..

I need someone...
1) who will always be there for me..
2) to love and to make me feel loved..
3) to embrace me tight in his arms..
4) to make me feel special..
5) to say 'everything will be okay' eventhough its not gonna be..
6) who can always make my heart skip a beat ..
7) who can lend his shoulders when i cry..
8) who can understand me real deep..
9) whom i can always say 'i love u' and really mean it..
10) who will always love and miss me eventhough im just next to him..

BUT im afraid of having one. I want but i dont want. Understand? Try to if u dont. I dont want to deal with all the complications and stuff. TROUBLESOME!

Happy belated birthday maliki...

I just need someone who can hold me tight...





That's us..those who were attached to bedok poly. Trust me, we are all NICE and FUN people. hehhee.. was told that we were the MOST cheerful group cos the rest before us were all very stern.. BORING!!!

SO anyways, polyclinic attachment was boring at first but we got used to it and the people became friendlier and stuff. SO its not that bad. The sisters were great. One busied with her phone. Too bad i cant fix her phone. I think she'll remember me as 'the phone lady'. The other one always had the i-have-to-do-work kinda look but on the last day when we called her up to take pictures, shes so into it. And her sexy pose..oh my god..melt us... hahha.. kidding ar sister.. :)


Its been 2 days since the 2nd semester started and i wont be surprise if sooner or later i'll be sitting for my semestral exam. There's so many things to learn with so little time to spare. And that scares me..

NEtball has been.. alright. Truth be told. Sometimes i dont feel belonged in that team. There's so many people im still afraid of. Coach, for sure, stella, jinquan,kim and some others. I dont know why im afraid of these people. Im always afraid if they dont like me. I want to talk to them but its always at the wrong time and i dont dare to speak to them again. That's just me. Maybe one day i'll try again.. Oh, about not feeling belonged..maybe i've always been in the main team since pri school and i get to participate and all but now when im in the second team, there's nothing much i can do and sometimes i just feel that people look down on me.. Its a sucky feeling ok! Maybe because im always at the top and when i fall, i fell hard. I'll try to stand strong though. haiz..

Saw Edwin today at bedok mrt. Wasnt sure if thats him. HE looked different yet he still look the same. But its him lah coz when i called his name, he turned. We were so close the last time but now, things aint the same anymore. Im busy with my stuff and he's busy with his. I feel so bad when he told me those stuff. NOt that i do it on purpose. Sorry b.. But i dont feel u either.. Its sad to see us drifting apart but that's how life is..we still have to move on. I just wish we can be like how we used to be.. but please bear in mind that u'll always be in my heart and mind.. believe me..

Some people dont talk to me already..i dont know what i've done wrong.. Whatever it is..im sorry.

I miss my friends who are taking their O's soon. I dont wanna bother them now.. HOpe u guys do well in ur exams and we'll meet up soon k. All the best!

Ive not seen my gfs for sooo long. One got grounded and the other, cant go out as much. SHe has a boyfriend..and im happy for her.. HOpe she's doing fine.. just miss her alot.

I dont know..sometimes i may appear happy, always smiling.. but when it struck me.. i can go all emo. And i do have my reason why im behaving oddly. I just hope my friends can understand. Its so difficult to live without someone u love and the kind of environment im in.. always reminds me of him. Whatsmore hari raya approaching.. i think its gonna be like what happen the previous year.. i missss him alot.i longed to hear his voice but i just cant. HOw i wish he could appear in my dream and talk to me..The thought of him always make me shed my tears.. I should have treasure him more.. But there's no point regretting now.. it serves no purpose.. To whoever reading this, please treasure ur loved ones. U never know what's gonna happen next..

i miss u..i want u..i need u..

We have officially ended our 2 weeks attachment at CGH for sem 1. Never would i have thought i'd be attached to that place. The staff are nice and so are the patients. The best thing was when we managed to put a smile to those who are in pain.. ITs a nice feeling...

Now, til the next attachment, there wont be anymore bedpan, 'missy ar', 'darling, can help me?', 'aunty,eat medicine ar', passing report, taking hourly,2hourly or 4hourly parameters, chatting with the clients, dealing with difficult colleagues, laughing at Choo Choo's crap, 'diana, u want to help me with this?', 'darling, bed(no.), off-plug', break
fast with the staff, rush to the utility room to get stuff, prepare the trolley, bedbath bed 32(i bet shes missing us) and stuff like that. oh well, let the memories remain...


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I didnt know the nurses loves to take photos.. i know we do.. :)


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We had some crazy moments.. there's more.. as u can see, im rushing to do the last minute card.. oh well, i managed.. And as expected, they were touched.. woohoo...

Im soooo gonna miss everyone from ward 36, i mean EVERYONE, which include the staff, patients, housekeepers, visitors..Yea, i made friends with all of them. Some asked us to visit them during hari raye.. HOw cool is that? Hope we'll have the time to even go out lah since we are having school during raye.. LAME!


We are only left with 2 weeks before hari raye..that's how fast the time flies.. scary. The house is alomost done.. waiting for the night itself to brush off some dust, put up the curtains, vacuum the house and stuff like that.

Mama's birthday tmr, and she's still unaware that we called up the usual gang to come over. I almost spill the bean just now but managed to cover it up..thats when my sis couldnt help it but laugh! URGH! oh yah, i burnt the tissue paper while trying to scoop the cuttlefish ball from the wok. Here i am trying to put off the fire with water, my mom was busy blowing the now-big-fire with her mouth.. OH MOTHER... hahah.. shut up! dont u dare laugh at my mother ok! idiot! hahah..

Millie darling, emi dear, sorry i couldnt join u guys for the celebration. will meet up soon k. I promise.. I know u miss me..coz i miss u too.. heheh :)

HAPPY 48th BIRTHDAY MAMA..love ya!

SO, a week has passed. Never in my million years would have thought i'd become a 'nurse'. Bet u dont as well. Like, ''diana, a nurse? NNNOOooooo'' ouhhh shut up ur face!

AS i was saying, i've been attached to the hospital for a week and its been great, other than that minor incident. Whatever! The patients are great and i love them...young and old. Ive only been taking care of the females. This week maybe changing to the male cubicle.. i wonder how its gonna be. -shrugged-

Anyways, it feels so good to be able to cheer them up. On the second day, was told by the morning shift people that one of them is bad tempered. But then i find her fun to talk to..my fav aunty there. i'll speak to her in malay.. joke around with her.. support her.. and it just feel so good when at the end of the day, when we say our goodbyes, she thanked us(me and gerry) for taking care of her and talk to her.. no wonder she was moody before..coz there's no one to talk to. Others complimented on us. Its a nice feeling when u make someone's day.

Im working tmr and yet im still awake now. Gonna die tmr.. ALL THE BEST FOR THOSE DOING N LVLS AND THOSE WHOSE EOF EXAMS STARTS SOON. i miss alot of people and hope they miss me too.. love ya!

ohyah.. ive painted my house and u cant never imagine we'd paint that colour.. guess what colour it is lah.. tc all!