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Fucking bitch! Just because ur an EN, it doesnt make u big alright. Started my day with a smile, as always, looking foward to each day to help/assist the sick during their stay. But things started to go wrong when that bitch opened her mouth. i mean like, what's her problem? Ok, i admit, we did things slower than her. Like hello, we 're handling a new case and she's in pain. Can u at least wait! Impatient brat! Gimme that kinda attitude! Think u're the only one who can show attitude around isit. Hello, thank godness its fasting month or i'll give u more of my fucking attitude. Oh sorry, isit because we are gorgeous and ur jealous or feel intimidated coz oh..i see lots of holes in ur face! im sorry, maybe i can recommend u the product im using! Then maybe u'll treat us good. Im ashamed coz u're also a malay, like us. No offence. but isnt it better if u treat us well and instead of showing us ur fucking attitude, u could teach us more of the skills and knowledge u have? '' im not even like this when i was a student''.. WOW! You must be a top student with good skills and knowledge and behaviour who doesnt make mistakes on ur first few days of attachment. fuck u! Tell that to the rest.. oh wait, tell that to the whole world.. how bad we are or how stuck up u think we are, just because u think we are doing diploma. We are here to learn.. not to attract those 'hot' guys or wanna look good in our uniform. why would we want to stand for so long and hurt our feet? Not all of our students are like how u think we are. Some of us actually want to learn. If u dont want to share ur knowledge, fine, we can ask someone else, someone even better than u. I bet even ur friends dont like ur attitude. You never know. im so sorry that u have to be like this. Maybe if u try to change ur oh-so-'hardworking' attitude, people might like u. Anyway, i should thank u for opening my eyes to see the real world with different kind of people that we have to deal with. I SUPER hope i wont be like u one day and that i'll make the newbies life easier. Haiz... I've never once regretted working at PCF! Thanks kak yana for the recommendation. Neways, The K2s had their graduation concert today at kallang theater. Slept for 2 hours. Forced myself to wake up at 6.30am. Reached tampines at 8. As usual, im the make-up artist. hahha.. The kids were SUPER cute in their costumes. Custom made ok. Their theme was ' Around the world'. There's china, india, malaysia, egypt, hawaii, england and i can no longer remember. some guys were ashamed of putting on make-up. How cute... Took bus to kallang. The bus driver's super nonsense ok! But wadahell, the kids were entertained. Holding room was chaotic with kids getting all excited, teachers running after them to get them ready, teachers getting ready for themselves, glitters everywhere, hair sprays filled the air, accessories scattered everywhere, parents wanted the best for their children, picture taking, teachers shouting to get the kids' attention, DIANA here DIANA there, and... more! trust me, there's more! Then all at once, all of them were gone from the room to stand by for the 'graduation ceremony'. i took the time to doll stephenie up. Backstage was a whole different thing. omg... Luckily ive taken care of a few the K2 classes. So i know some of them and amazingly, they remember me. :) Saw my cousin and took pictures with her. At one point, i askd mrs tan for help. She took the camera and fiddle with it, while the 2 of us got ready with our oh-so-sexy pose and GUESS WAD? Mrs tan was actually facing the lense lah. i was wondering, 'how come i can see her face'? THen my cousin and i LAUGHED hysterically infront of her, which was bad lah, i know but we just couldnt help it. hahha.. -rolls eyes- tsk tsk.. The children were adorable. Even if they made mistakes in their dance move, they still look oh-so-cute. The audience were boring. So u can hear me shout most of the time, at the top of my lung. And im only standing behind the curtains. hahha.. " YOU WERE LOUD!" that's what ive bn told. Oh well, i had fun! :) I'll never forget the tampines west family at blk 140. LOVE U ALL...! I've been kinda moody these few days. Sorry to those ive ignored. hee.. Maybe its the time of the month..or its just me, being all moody. I mean like..c'mon lah..that's diana right? u should know that. hahha.. Well, maybe only the 5N1 people knows..esp AZWAN!.. Attitude bastard, that's what they call me. OK, LISTEN! Its not that im such an attitude bastard ok! ITs just that, well, people said LEO people are hot/bad tempered. GUess it must be true. I can just like, for no reason, in a spilt second, SNAP!, change my behaviour or character or whatever, unintentionally OK! ITs not that i planned it. So u cant exactly blame me u know. Hahha.. So, if u can sense the change in the way i talk, dont even talk to me..coz i'll get irritated and that's it..ur gone! hahha.. im serious ok! When i was in secondary school, by looking at fathiah's face can make me laugh.. Naqiah's lame jokes or her 'wadahell' behaviour can also cheer me up.. edwin's msgs can make me smile and thus i'll feel better.. BUT now, no one can do any of that.. Sorry to say, anyone else who tried to cheer me up will only get a scolding from me coz i'll get irritated..omg! im so bad can? I dont know lah.. its my spontanous reaction.. someone..please help me...!!!!! Netball training was..errmmm... -shrugged- I cant sprint for nuts! Was told to sprint 3X400m. Like.. OMG! if u ask me to run long distance, at least i can..u ask me to sprint long distance.. NO! For all 3 rounds, i was the last few but not the last. I can hardly breathe lah and i got bloody stiches.. some more i had my period.. u know how URGH that was? IDIOT! Syaza has been fooled! yey! I'll shave ur head one day.. trust me..hahha.. YEY..going for facial tmr! but.. DARN! that means i cant go out with friends.. URGH! Next week i'll begin with my first attachment. Im excited yet scared. HOW! Hope i wont make a fool of myself. :) HAPPY 15th BIRTHDAY CRYSTAL DARLING.. im bored.... Okay. Here is what you have to do1. copy this whole thing and paste it on your journal2. change all the answers so that they apply to you3. tag 3 ppl to do this 1. Starting Time: 1237 2. Full Name: Herdiana mohamed ishak 3.Best Friend(s):best of the best, naqiah and of coz, some others..they know who they are.. 4.Sexiest Friend: ermmm, shane? hahha 5. Funniest Friend(s): naqiah, shane,sel,megan,emi,fathiah, hudah..basically,those who can make me laugh thou its lame.haa.. 6. Smartest friends: nasarath,megan,eng chian..oh gosh, i envy them.. :) 7. Dumbest Person: kai rui? hahha 8. Shyest Friend: doubt any of them are.. 9. Most boring person: -shrugged- first of all, i dont have boring friends.. 10. Who Do you get advice from: depends.. 11. Height : 162.. 12. Date Of Birth: 26 july 1988 13. Righty / Lefty : righty..wanna try to be ambidextrous thou.. 15. Shoe Size :depends, 8? hahha.. 16.Shoe Brand: depends 17. Do you Crack any Body Parts: no.. 19. Siblings: Irritating elder sister and brother 20. Boy Friend/Girl Friend: gf.. hahha 21. Crush: must u noe? 22. Liked a Teacher: i love mr ong...!!!! and and and mr QUEK!!! hahha... 23. Ate a Tub of Ice Cream: no.. 24. Ran Into a Glass Door: noo...im nt that blind u noe.. 25. Gone Skinny Dipping: no..i wish i could.. :) 26. Nearly hit by a car: YES 27. Ran into a parked car: no.. hahha.. idiot! Girls Fill Out About Guys 28. Boxers or Briefs: boxers 29. Tall or Short : tall..duh 30. Six-pack or Muscular Arms: both? 31. Body or Personality: both can? maybe more to personality.. 32. Ear Pierced or Not : NOT 33. Sporty or Outdoorsy:BOth.. 34. Good or Bad guy: good and bad.. Guys Fill Out on girls 35. G or hipster undies: 36. Tall or Short : 37. Long Hair or Short: 38.Dark or Light Eyes: 39. Light/Dark Hair: 40. Body or Personality: 41. Ears Pierced or Not: 42. Good Girl/Bad Girl: 43.Hair Up or Down : 44. Sporty or Classy: 45. Chicken or Not Afraid: Which One is Better 46. Coke or pepsi: pepsi..coke toooo gassy 47. K.F.C or Mcdonalds: k.f.c 48. Cats or Dogs : none.. ahha 49. Coffee or Tea : both.. 50. Eastside or westside:eastside..westside is so weird.. 51.Vanilla or chocolate: depends..bt i dont really like chocolate..heee 52.Cake or Cookies: both.. 53.Purple striped Lime socks or white socks: purple striped. 54. Sunset or Sunrise: BOTH!!! equally lovely..aawwww.. 55. Day or Night: both! 56. Lights on or off : depends lah..duh.. 57. Summer or Winter: both.. Your favourite 58. Food: spicy food 59. Holiday destination: bangkok? i wanna go shoppingggg... 60. Radio Station:95,98.7 61. Place: home! 62. Will you believe in God: ive bn believin in god since forever! 63. What you want to be when u grow up: nurse? hahha.. teacher.. murderer? yey.. hahha Random Questions 64. Definite love: what's love? 65. Favourite Place: ccs band room...hahha 66. Favourite day(s) of the week: fri and sat 67. Bedtime: depends.. 68.Satan or God or atheist: huh wat?? More questions 69. Do you love someone right now: maybe 70. Do you care about someone: its EVERYONE! 71. Do you think of someone everyday: YES 72. Do you think someone is special in any way: yea..everyone is special in their own way wad.. 73. Finishing time: 1255 74. Date: 19 September 2006 Naqiah, RAudhah, Shamida.. u've been tagged! i love 'she's the man'..coz there's soemone whol looks like my baby.. hahha.. HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY ,ABANG. Sorry i wasnt there yesterday. Had to go to that stuuuupid training! love love! Thanks LINA! URGH!!! 1) single, taken or crushing? single i guesss.... BOOOOORRIIINNNGGGGG!!! 2) are you happy with your life now? i think so.. apart from the oh-man-i've-gt-no-blooody-bf..hee.. 3) when you meet the right person, do you fall in love with him fast? i doubt so..i nd to gt to noe that person fers b4 i actually fall in love wif him.. 4) you had your heartbroken? u think? DUH! 5) do you believe there are some circumstances where cheating love is acceptable? errmm... NOOO! 6) would you take someone back if he/she cheats on you? NOoo..i wouldnt wanna repeat the same mistake again.. 7) have you talk bout marriage with another person before? yes..my gfs.. hee 8) do you want children? yes.. they'll light up my life.. 9) how many? 3? 10) would you consider adoption? maybe..if only i couldnt get a child of my own. 11) if someone like you right now,what do you think is the best way to let you know his/her feelings? just tell me that he likes me lah. but im afraid dey'll gt hurt..heee.. 12) do you enjoy getting into relationship? only if its pleasant.. 13) be honest,what is the furthest you and your ex did? too bad im an dishonest person...lalal.. 14) do you believe in love at first sight? no.. 15) are you romantic? YES..VERY...if i want to. 16) do you believe you can change someone? im firm and fierce..for sure.. if he can handle, then maybe i can change that someone...ESP if he smokes.. 17) if you could married somewhere, where will it be? void deck would be the best with all the noise and mess.. 18) do you easily give in when you are fighting? YES..and its sux! 19) do you have feelings for someone right now? maybe..bt i hate it coz i'll end up getting hurt.. 20) have you ever wished you could have/had someone but you messed it up? nooo..coz i dun wish to mess it up. 21) have you ever broken a heart? ooppss...ermmm..yea. 22) if one day your best friend fell in love with the boy/girl who you deeply in love with, what would you do? SHe wont dare..trust me.. hahhha.. ryd gf? eh..u bttr dont i tell u.. 23) are you missing someone now? YES! my oh-so-dearest gf and edwin. of coz i miss the rest as well and they know it but i miss these 2 the most. <3 To be done by another FIVE dearies so here are my Lucky Fives :)`naqiah, raudhah, edwin, shane, emilia... been staying at homelately...boring... omg omg omg... my results are out!!!! U know, after i did every paper..i just told myself, i dont care if i just pass.. as long as i pass..coz i dont wanna do supp paper or worst, repeat the module. It dont have to be As or Bs.. as long as its Dssss... i dont care.. omg! At 1am, my friend told me results are out.. im excited, scared, duno-wad-to-do kinda feeling. ok..so here goes... HS1026 : C+ HS1027 : C+ HS1036 : C+ HS1028 : C HS1030 : D+ HS1031 : D+ HS1033 : D ok..i know..its bad! BUT i DONT CARE...for now. u dont know what happened to me that time. So, im thankful to have this kinda results.. for now! i pledge to study harder when school reopens and not slack and revise everyday unlike what i did the last time. ok..i dont know if i only had to say this now and not do what i just pledged but i hope i'll be abit hardworking the next time.... :) Dont laugh at my stupidity coz this is just the begining.... can i not go netball later.. plz.. the running and all... arghhhh! YEY... Went out with darling gf just now. I soooo missed her. Accompanied her to starbucks at siglap to have her interview. HOpe she gets the job. Then we went to bugis to shop. I bought a skirt, tube dress, necklace and belt..she bought slipper, jumper and belt. Gosh..Seriously, i've got no money left now. SHIT!!!!! Breakfast at banquet... Talked about some stuff... heee... After which, we trained home. Her company was wonderfully pleasant. Love u gf... Shall go out next week k.. i hope! Omg, talking to heng yi on the phone can be SUPER awkward. I mean, we've never talked on the phone before..well, maybe because we dont have each other's number until yesternight. Conversation went smoothly lah but still, its super awkward. We only chatted on msn or if we sees each other around, we'll have a short chat.. (he lives next to my blk) Oh well, he's bloody irritating.. keep pestering me.. idiot! Happy staying in the camp while i enjoy myself ok! I had the weirdest dream ever.. emilia..if ur reading, dont laugh! Changkat people having performance at nyp..i dont know why.. tHen suddenly someone started pointing the knife, threatening others that he'll slash them if they came closer. Me, being the 'heroin', challanged him. hahha.. and when i got hold of the knife, i lectured him. (wadahell) But i got angry and frustrated that i feel like killing him. But i cant coz i'll go to jail for that. THen i turned and grabbed emilia(coz she was the nearest to me) and cut her hair. OMG! She didnt shout or retaliate but talked to me in a way that made me feel guilty. And that's it.. that's the end of our friendship! I then wrote her a note. Was half way through when MILLIE told me she was coming. SO i left the place and hide. i was crying lah.. hahha..then Dont know what happen next... hahha.. Once i woke up and aware that it was just a dream, i actually msg-ed emilia and apologised.. hahha.. at that moment, it seems ok coz the dream seemed real but now, when come to think of it.. hahha.. its so childish.. yet its so cute... hahha... ok..shut up..DONT LAUGH! FINE! BYE! Am i too soft hearted? In order not to make people feel bad or sad, i'll end up getting hurt. Is that fair? Sometimes, i am angry with that someone but if i vent my anger on that person, im afraid i'll hurt him/her and that they'll think i dont care about them or if they are angry with me, then i'll have to apologise for being rude. Times like that, i just wish i could run away but i know that's not the solution. SOmetimes i feel like, so what if they are hurt, let them feel what im feeling but i just cant bring myself to do so. Wait, first and foremost, im afraid of people! yah.. Im afraid with lots of things when dealing with others. Im always afraid if i hurt their feelings and our relationship might turn bad. And im afraid of losing them. But have they ever thought of my feelings? MAybe lah but i think its below my expectation. -shrugged- This is life.. very unpredictable. We wont know what's gonna happen ahead of us. ITs unfair at times.. agree? Talking about life... my life is super boring now.. no man! hahha.. Sometimes i want, sometimes i dont. I only want if i see couples everywhere or if i have no one to go out with.. hahha.. NO! kidding..Ive longed for a guy to just embrace me in his arms and make me feel secure. All i need is to have someone to hug me, just hug. U dont even have to say a single word... That's all i ask for, at the very least. Hmmm... people said, the more u want, the more u wont get it, the longer u have to wait. Oh well...cant be bothered then. :) if only u noe how important u are to me...but i dont wanna have high hopes on u.. afraid i might get hurt again and again and again..till den,tc! I did my first dressing.... on my brother. That's super cool ok... He had an accident yesterday. A car banged into him. Was sent to ttsh. Not that bad lah. Only abrasion and has a swollen ankle. doctor couldnt tell whats the problem. Maybe he tore his ligament or broke/dislocate the tarsal bones..but i doubt so lah.. When i removed the bandage and all.. the pus was super sticky and the wound was wet. Mama and sis couldnt bear to look at it.. mama said 'kembang badan mama' and brother replied 'badan mama slalu kembang pon'. that's BAD! here's the evidance...     I wont show more of that, afraid if u cant take it. BUT he's in pain now. im afraid i gave the wrong medication. HOW! HOpefully he'll be fine by tmr! NO matter how much i hate my brother when he's being such a nuisance, i do love him.. especially when he's in pain or sick. I hope im doing the right thing. I hope the pain he's feeling now is the process of healing. Oh god, please tell me im doing the right thing... Well, i slept the whole day today. Not literally lah. I slept around 3+am, awaken by mama at 10+am. After shower and did some chores, i slept from 3+/4pm to 8pm. That's pretty long for an evening nap. Heee..(im feeling quite sleepy now actually) ok bye! I swear ive always wanted to blog but i just cant be bothered... I'll just summaries what i remember ayte.. Had netball training on monday and i swear that was torturing! Twas raining..so we trained indoor, along da corridor..i know, PATHETIC! We had to increase our fitness level. And so coach made us run and i mean RUN! sprint like hell.. have to chase and all. And the distance was like SUPER FAR LAH!!! omg... And oh yah.. i fast on that day.. so after i break fast, i straight away ran. so yah.. felt sick after that. But no choice, still had to run. First time my butt ache and my hamstrings, no need to mention lah HOR..super sore. Training was tough but i managed to sustain my energy till the end. Went to town with megan and nasarath on tues. Megan's crazy..she can shop like mad lah. I got influenced by her and bought a jacket. She can really shop! Nasarath went off earlier to have family dinner which she didnt go coz its too late. Megan's godbrother and his friend, as well as her bf, came along after that. Watched monster house.. hahha.. THough its just a cartoon BUT the sound effect was super scary. I dont like! hahha... Megan covered her eyes. CAn u believe that? gosh... Trained home while they went for supper. ANd today, there's another training. Everyone was complaining lah that they cannot run and all. I did too.. heee.. luckily not much of the physical stuff were done today. MOre to skills. But i suck at it today! i dropped the ball alot of times and my shooting skills..gone bad! I soooooo have to practice more! But i dont wish to play for the coming tournament (POLITE) coz its fasting month and im having attachment. I dont think i'll be selected.. I wish i wont but if i do..i dont want it either. I can forsee that i'll be super tired if i were to go for the tournament which is at RP and its at night! So i think its, goodbye tournament, hello hospital! OK..i dont wish to blog anymore..bye! |
