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ooppss..i fergt to add in dis incident..while waiting fer abg to try out his jeans..i went to throw ma tissue in da bin..den i walked pass dis familiar luking guy.. it struck ma mind..its SAMUEL..frm ma nco camp.. well hes da fers guy i met.. during da pre camp..ma dad sent me on his bike..i held ma horn in btw me and dad..once i reached da cca branch.. i saw dis guy..holding a horn in his hand..woohhoo..we said hi..and we became fwens.. hehehaha together wif da res..ok..and so..i called out his name..he turned..luking very blur..hahha.. i approached him.."u remember me?" he still lukd very blur i tell u..u shud see his face. "its me..diana...does dat ring a bell? frm nco..." he nodded bt wasnt convincing enuf.."EM D ONLY MALAY GURL IN HORN SECT..!!!" urgh..!!! ok..nw he remembered...bbbrrr... ok..he luked surprised..he still cant believe its me..he said.."diana?? ur da one i saw on da bike ryd?? gosh..u luk so different..i cant recognise u.." am i so diff??? i wonder.. he was still in a state of shock while toking to me..hahhahh... very funny...hes now in NYP..wonder if hes in da band..if he is..he shud noe radhiah..and both of dem r frm da same nco..gosh..ok..i kept on smiling wen i recalled abt dis..so funny..nvm..ayte..if ur sooooo free...go and read ma entry wic i posted a few minutes ago..enjoy..!!!
i bought 5 tops frm FOX women..WOW..u muz think dat it cost a BOMB! nope..ders dis promotion..da second item will cost 10 bucks only...u imagine..frm 23 bucks...it goes all da wae down to 10? mama gave da green light...so...u noe wad happen nex..i grabbed everything dat caught ma eyes.. i bought 5 tops..abang bought 1 top..and it only cost us $69. worth it ryd..and yah..as always..i gt home..and tried everything..I LYK!!! everything fit nicely on ma 'beautiful' body..oh its so gd to hav small body..hahha...not saying dat i hav a small body but ermm..guess i do hav a small body..at least ma stomach doesnt bulge out..i am VERY particular abt ma tummy... muz maintain..hahha.. oh wad da hell..em still fat! d only problem i hav is ma lower part of ma body..gosh i hav big butt...and i hate dem..!!! its ok..fasting month's approaching..i make sure i'll lose weight within dat one month..dats ma fers priority fer da month.. ohh..wadever..!!! i so luv ma shirts..wooohhooo... ok...had ma last prelim ppr juz nw..dat was dnt..luckily it wasnt dat tough..i din finish wif ma revision coz edwin called at nyd.. den i fell aslp. after da ppr..i gt nower to go..da gurls were having their phy ppr..so i went straight home..den i remembered dat i had a date wif mama.. gt home..landed on ma wonderful bed and slpt..bt urgh..i managed to do dat fer a few minutes only..mama woke me up and asked me to gt ready.. bbbbrrrr.... well..took ma shower...put on ma clothes and OK....EM READY! den gt to noe ma brader cuming along.. went to dhoby ghout to hsbc..mama wanted to close her acc fer da credit card.. and we gt $10,000 cash back..wow..so much money...!!!$$$$$$!!!! den we went to P.S..da last tym i went der was wif syafiq..we went to catch a movie.. dat was ages ago.. nvm.. heres da bes part..abg wanted levi's jeans.. ok.. mama bought fer him coz hes bn asking fer dat fer a long tym.. den opp..ders FOX company..woohoo..dats wen i bought ma babies... hehhe.. den went to buy bdae present fer baby aiman..cute lil clothes we bought him.. ate at LJ and took da bus home.. kinda slppy thou.. bt i cant stp toking wif mama..abg went to fetch his gf at bukit panjang.. whoa.. reached bdk inter..edwin koled..i wonder y..huh..as expected..hes bored. wassup wif him..after so long of nt koling me..he sudd started koling.. mayb yan shan wasnt free to entertain him..hmmm...mama wanted to pay da bills...so we went to da nearest S.A.M machine.. end ma conversation wif him..paid da bills and went off..wen we crossed da road towards mac..sudd we felt tiny droplets..ITS RAINING...die..we've gt laundries outsyd..so mama asked me to run home..lyk hw can i...? i was wearing a long skirt..and ma shoes made da situation werst..nvm..saw a couple of familiar faces.. i managed to walk very fast bt still hafta maintain ma image..hahha.. shuddup diana! ok2..em gonna take ma shower nw.. gonna watch da finals fer anugerah latr..cant wait..wanted to mt him...bt..hmmm..as expected..he sure cant make it..dun blame him thou..he alr gt his plan..i cant b selfish and destroy dem..ryd...???yah..nvm..em happy todae..so it doesnt matter dat much..only i noe da true feeling..bt..its ok..oh yah...i bttr go nw... SPLASH!!! IM SORRY..well dats all i cud sae. i noe its meaningless to sae dat all da tym coz mistakes r only gd to b made once. i duno if i shud b angry or sad, guilty or disappointed..its all jumbled up. lyk kai rui said..lyf is nvr fair. i agree.. things will nvr happen as wad we expect it to b. i duno.. nothing can b done if we remain dis wae...sorry.. -to hate u i cannt do, to hate me its up to u- every wk after i gt home frm da cemetry..i'll feel down..its lyk..wen i stepped out of da car..ma mind and heart will b at ease coz em gonna 'meet' ma dad..everywk i'll tok to him..i believe he can hear me.. bt soon after i left da place..ma heart sank..i miss ma dad..to me hes da greatest dad ever..very caring..concern abt oders..wun think twice to help..always offering his helping hands..hes juz very gd and kind and all..i noe u guys will say..ma dad's great too..hes da coolest dad ard..well..everyone has their own views abt their own dad..or wadsoever..i juz miss him..and each tym i think of him..i cant hide ma tears. its juz so sad.. urgh..i dun wish to sae all dis..let me juz kp da pain all by maself..em supposed to b studying nw..havin ma phy ppr tmr..its confrm dat i'll fail..so i juz dun bother to study..esp wif dis kinda mood..heck lah..bt i'll heed ma baby's advice..hmmm...thanx b.. bttr go nw..gonna do da laundries... -appreciate da moments u hav wif ur loved ones before u lose dem- hmph.! mayb i shud juz fergt abt it..lyk juz go wif da flow..ya..and its lyk if doing so in da past were possible.. y nt nw? interfering wun make it werk...its juz making it werst.. i duno if em doing da right thing..it seems lyk em chasing sumthing bt it keeps running away. sumtyms, em tired of it and dats da pt of tym i wish to give up bt giving up wun solve da prob. i tried bt always failed to make it bttr. mayb i shud juz give it a rest and stp making da fers move.. i believe dat if its meant to b mine..it'll cum to me one dae..waiting is da most torturing thing to do bt if i've gt no choice..i'll wait... noeing abt d air leak..it shivers me. it makes me feel werst fer da torture.. em sorry..i've caused u pain.. fer nw..i shud juz stp thinking..i shud hav done dat long ago.. ok, i managed bt sumtyms it cums naturally. fasting month is approaching..i dun wanna imagine how da situation will b lyk at home wen its tym fer us to break fast..esp da begining of da fasting month and d end..i bet she'll b crying most of da tym..who wun..mayb i will too.remembering da moments we had..really breaks ma heart..dis yr will b da fers tym we'll b celebrating wifout ma dad..ya..its tough..i noe..bt i dun wanna think too much coz dis yr em sitting fer ma important exam.. hmmm.. symtyms lyf aint fair fer me.. urgh!em still having ma prelims..so sickening..wen isit gonna end??? oh ok..nx thurs!!! gosh..dats long..bt da gd thing is dat ders only one ppr each dae..dats y its bn dragged till thurs..anyhow..i had ma chem p3 and mads p1 juz now..i duno if da ppr is tough or em getting dumber..i think its da 2nd one..really..i cant even do simple calculation..i really HAFTA buck up..nvm..lets nt tok abt examz ya..make me go crazie..oh ya..i lyk mdm fazidah's 'poem'..it goes..: u can luk up to heaven to seek fer inspiration,u can luk down to hell if ur in desperation, but u cannt luk to ur left or right fer information, or i'll stp u frm taking da examination.. cool ryd.. very creative..ok..stp it! well..i duno if being sucha bad gurl..its lyk..i've bn ignoring him. dats very obvious. i toked to everyone in da grp except him..opppss...nt ma fault or intention oso wad..he dun wanna tok to me either..bt i think fer nw its bttr dis wae.. mayb one dae i'll go up to him and sae 'hi'. ok..nvm.. i think em nt being sucha a gd gf afterall...i admit i din take d initiative to apologise or wadsoever..i duno wads wrong wif me..em nt lyk dis b4... sori yang..actually i nie aksyen je..nk test u je..jgn lah marah ye..hahha.. em so bad..diana..jgn sampai dia da tk tahan..baru tau...gigit jari kang.. bbbrrr... ok2..i'll stp being sucha jerk..woohoo..actually..hes a nyc guy afterall..so sweet..bt hor..he can be an irritating pest as well.. lyk urgh..!! hahha...tk lah..main2 je..ok2..sorry2..:p aaarrrggghhh..i duno wad to sae..i wanna rest..em so tired..bt ive gt no choice bt to study..!!! 40 daes left b4 we sit fer our fers ppr..DIANA!! WAKE UP!!!! oh yah.. HAPPY 14th BDAE CHRISTAL DARLING...!!! i duno why em feeling dis wae..mayb i din gt wad i've wanted fer dis 2 daes..mayb..-shrugged- hate dis feeling..ma heart is so pain dat i cud do nothing to ease them..hmm..bt u noe wad..i hafta get use to it..wads da point of waiting and thinking wen i noe ders high possibility of nt getting dem? indeed ders none.. i din noe da song wud b so nice..so soothing..bt wif da situation em in nw..its adding salt to ma wound..ouch..bt i cant dwell on it coz em hafing ma pprs starting frm tmr..i hafta concentrate and quit dreaming.. ayte..i bttr go nw..nt really in da mood.. all da best to ma gfs and da rest..oh yah..HAPPY 23rd BDAE ABANG! -why cant u understand?- Ma stupidity
HUH..! hw cud i b so childish as well as selfish and unreasonable...? ha-ha..em luffing at maself fer ma stupidity..selfish-coz i wan him fer maself.. unreasonable-dun think of wad he feels.. childish-hope fer sumthing dat wun happen.. da whole dae i've bn wanting to mt him..thou i noe its impossible coz he gt his plan ready. at nyd..as irritating as ever..i kept sms-ing him, hoping he wud mt me..bt as expected..he cant coz hes out wif fwens.. did dat fer a couple of tyms dat i think he gt irritated alr..cant blame him..em at fault.. after our dinner, ma cuzz and i went seperate ways..in da buz..believe it or nt..i was crying...quietly. i cant control ma feelings.. i felt ashamed, sad, stupid, lost and lonely. all jumble up together.. took ma tym walking home. decided nt to go home straight. no one's at home. so i sat under ma void deck and cont wif ma revision wic was nt really effective coz ma mind was sumwer else..da funny thing was dat..em waiting fer him to cum..ya..u may luff coz i admit i was being stupid.. hes nt lyk sumone i knew once dat wud cum regardless of da time.. haiz.. by da tym da clock strikes 12 midnyd..i gave up. i packed ma bag and went home. still cant believe dat i actually waited..lesson to b learned..nt to wait fer sumthing dat u noe it wun happen.. hmmm...i hafta think rasionally..be positive and all.. guess i shud change ma attitude..well..i shud b going nw..gonna do ma revision..till everyone's home...nyd! Long entry
140905:had ma phy/chem practical..woke up ard 0730 coz ma ppr starts at 10..so we dun hafta go fer morning assembly.. so nyc..hahha.. duno hw to do ma phy pract..bt managed to..i broke one test tube while doing ma chem pract..ma elbow hit da test tube rack..and fortunately only one of dem broke..bloody hell..and da lab went oohhed and aahhed.. heck..we ended da ppr ard 1130..tot we wud b quarantined bcoz of da shift 3 ppl..bt den dey said we cud go home after gtting back our phones.. took so long fer da teachers to distribute dem..wadahell.. den met ma gfs..naq wanted to watch movie bt still contemplating coz hmm..i fergt.. den finally we agreed to watch and hidayu went home coz she said she wanted to rest b4 going fer nyd study..so ok..we bought da tix fer da 0110 show..since we've gt nower to go..we decided to go straight in to da theater..dat was ard 0105 lagh naq.. der was noone on da upper level..very empty and quiet and i started to shiver..hahha..ok..i admit..i was scared.. damn it.. i stepped into da theater and found noone and guess wad..i ran out..hahha..was so funny.. while waiting fer ppl to actually gt seated..we went to da ladies..i din let go of naq and even wanted to go in to da cubical togeder w her..hahha.. ok..i was imaginaring stuff..hahha.. shuddup.. finally we went bk to da theater.. der..we saw a head..i was quite relieved..we gt da best seat..da middle blk at da last row..so fun..den i told naq dat its abit scary to luk at da screen and u see one head sticking out infront of u..hahha..weird case.. nvm.. ltr..ppl started to fill da seats..ya..dats wad em toking abt..lots oof ppl watching da movie..after all da advertisments..DA LONGEST YARD began..i tell u..its a great show..so funny and touching and all..hahha...i was shivering lyk hell..so was naq.. coz its bloody cold..hehhe.. ok lah.. after da show..we went back to skul fer band pract..miss beind in da band and dey were playing new songs..i wudnt wanna miss dat..so we kold ming han n ayu to meet dem up. mh came ltr and we din hear frm ayu... thought she was slpping lyk a log..bt nooo...ltr..few mins b4 band ended,she came and told us dat she went to her fwen's place..hmmm..no comments.. did i go fer nyd study?? ermm..i dun think so..hehhe.. 150905: ermm..wad happened yesterdae..oh ya..after skul went straight home..ma gfs came over..as usual..use da comp..i dun mind..me and ayu watched dis singing competition..cool..ard 5+..da gurls wanna go home..and i gt ready to go back to skul.. to study till 9. i managed to do ma ss..i took 2 hours to complete dem coz i miss him so much and of coz i go ard disturbing lah..i cant sit still fer nuts..hahha.. crap.. after dat..met him..urgh..rinduku terlerai sudah..hahha.. bt den it wasnt fer long.. -regretted- nvm..gt home..watched tv..lieing on da floor..still wif ma skul u..guess wad..din noe wad tym i fell aslp outsyd..i woke up in da middle of da nyd..coz i remembered i haven hang ma skul shirt.. den i saw all ma shirts had been hung..dat means mama helped me wash..ouh...sucha relieve..took of ma skirt and went to bed..snuggled bsyd kakak in dat super single bed..(ok...imagine da 2 of us in one bed..coz mama took ma bed..) bt it wasnt squeezy thou..guess we r used to it coz we've bn slpping togder since young.. bt gtting bored..now.. who wanna slp nex to me???woohhoo.. hope its a guy..hahha..gosh.. 160905: ironed ma skul u after ma shower..went outof da house rather early.took ma tym lah..den kairui kold..asking wer i was..wanted to meet me fers to pass me da bag..dats so sweet of him..bought joy da bag shes bn asking 4..kai rui..i wannn!!!!! nvm..reached skul..called joy..she was behind ma classs...went to her and pass it to her..told her its nt frm me n i walked away..u shud see d expression on her face..very shock..blur..and funny. hahha.. idiot..fers period was eng..fer da last 10 mins or so..i slept.. after dat we had mads..ma tcher din cum so i cont slpping fer da whole one hour.. ma eyes were red wen i woke up.. den chem..tried to concntrate bt mail made lots of noise..mood was affected and i scolded him a few tyms.heck ar..trying very hard fer him to hate me.. reccess..i was lining up fer da burger..den ma fwen pinched me..i slapped him wif out luking and guess wad..i spilled his drink..MILO!!!..den da drink splashed at his sleeves bt werst to suhaila's shirt..gosh i was scared.. den she went to da toilet to clean her shirt..was bloody wet i tell u..so i asked her to take off her sirt and let me dry dem..while doing so..it reminds me wen i was in sec2. spagetti spilled on ma shirt coz dis guy bang into me..luckily da stains wasnt noticable 4 su.again..ma mood was affected..i din eat anything..no mood to tok..had ss..did sum stuff.. after skul ended.. met joy..was supposed to go bugis now..bt den syaza gt her to follow her sumwer..-shrugged- and so here i am..blogging b4 doing ma oder stuff..going back to skul ltr..den mt ma fam at geylang..em so lazy.. on second tot..i dun feel lyk going back..feel lyk studying at home..u think? haiz.. o lvl's in 44 daes i think..so fast..having ma prelims da whole of nx wk...dis is driving me nuts.. missing u badly..wen will i see u again.... Confession
sumtyms..i began to wonder..y me?? its lyk..i lack of everything.. be it mentally, physically or emotionally..i cant deny dat..wenever u say out something during da conversation..thou i noe it was meant to b a joke.. i actually felt hurt by dos remarks..i duno y..sensitive..? ya..u can sae.. den i'll wonder y u tk pilih je pompan lain who r prettier..smarter..sexier.. and all.. em sure she can make u happy..i dun dare to ask u..i juz cant bring maself to...hmm..i dun even noe if u sayang i..u asked me dat bt hey..i wasnt sure of wad ur feeling is lyk...i tk tau lah u..kdng2 i rase bersalah fer treating u dat wae..mcm i nie tk tau amek hati u.. dats nt true.. really..tkpelah u.. em juz sorry if i hurt u in any wae b4 dis.. ders still so many daes ahead of us..not to worry..we'll meet up sum dae.. i promise..prelims gonna start soon..having ma sci practical tmr...nx wk we'll have da rest of da written pprs.. em scared..coz em nt prepared..i cant remain dis wae..i hafta study..i dun wanna repeat da history..i dun wanna haf dat feeling lyk u duno anything and wen we received da results..i'll cry and regret..i dun wan dat to happen again.. nvr..! fer da tym being..i wanna put everything aside and concentrate on ma exams.. i cant let dos things distract me...i'll try ma best fer prelims..as to see hw ma standard will b so dat i can prepare fer ma o's.. .bt one thing fer sure..darling..i cant gt u out of ma head.em missing u alr...muah! sad
i duno y em feeling down so suddenly..it all happened at da same tym.. well..i knew y he din turned ard..bt wen he apologised..i duno y em sad.. den toking to joy made me feel sad as well..we saw e/o a couple of tyms in skul bt its lyk we din noe e/o..i duno y i felt dat wae..ma baby had a problem..bt he din reply ma last msg..kinda worried fer him thou.. haiz.. i duno..nvm..i'll try to cheer up..nyd..
guys+guitar=yummy
u noe...i've always wanted a 'boyfriend' who can play a guitar..i duno... i always find dem cool..and so yummy..hahha..ya..and recently wen we supported widya's boyfriend in dis band competition..i found out dis guys were really amazing and dey lookd so urgh wif dat guitar..hahha.. since den i alr told maself dat i'll find sumone who can play a guitar.. isnt dat cool..hahha..ok..shuddup diana..woohooo...em alone at home nw..bloody bored u noe..i wanna go out..bt too lazy to get dis arse of mine outta dis house..i wanna buy clothes..bag...urgh..lots of stuff bt da problem is dat ..i've gt NO MONEY!!!!! boohooo...hahha.. ya..nvm..wait till i werk in ermm...3 months tym??? ya.. cant wait fer dis freaking o lvl to end..hahha...bt i haven study a single thing..isnt dat great..lalalal... ! em bored em bored em bored!!!!! nvm...em gonna do ma chores now..see..wad a gud gurl i am..i luv cleaning ma house...(ya ryd)..and em satisfied wen ma house is sparkling clean..unlyk sumone's room...urgh.. hahha..jgn terase..ok2..i bttr gt started..DDAaaaaaa!!!!
bored
hey....guess wad..!!!??? em bored..u noe..lyk.. bored coz ders nothing to do..even thou ders lots of things i hafta do..ermmm..bored..and ya..did i say em bored..of coz..coz em really bored..!!! urgh! hahha..ok..em bored..dats y.. aah..shuddup u idiot! hmmm... wad am i suppose to do? oh yah..study..bt urgh..!!!i hate to study coz its so boring!!!i wanna go out..bt ma prelims ard da corner..aaarrgghhh..!!!! BORED! ok fine..i'll stop! boredboredboredboredboredboredboredboredboredboredbored!!!!
ARGH
aarrgghh...!!!hes so cute!!!!!urgh....dat guy in chan u...HALU....argh..!!! hahha..omg..em going crazie over dis cutie...lina...u agree...???? i luv him man..hahha..ayte..stp it diana...!! wahahhahha... i cant help it..ok2..i'll stp..hmmm...ok..i went out w lina juz now..we had pizza... woohoo..i dun wan dem bt lina was craving fer dem.. urgh..!!! nvm... i so hafta lose weight..somebody kp saying em fat..!!!i noe ok..u dun hafta say... ermmm...i bttr go nw..hafta revise thru machem pratical ppr..em will be tested on dem tmr..together wif phy...bbbrrr.....
contract
we've signed a contract..hahha..bt it aint fer real..hw i wish it is..hahha.. funny..to think dat i had a crush on him wen i was 6..woohoo...hahha.. bt nah..i noe i cant..lyk hello..who am i...?i gt no speciality..no wadsoever..i noe ma limit lah..dun worry.. haiz..i wanna bf..bt i dun wanna gt hurt again...ouh ya..if ur reading dis..em sorry i cant giv u anoder chance..i've given enuf..hope u understand..so..as i was saying..ya..we signed a contract..ouhh...wadahell...i duno wad to blog actually...went out wif ma 'darling' juz nw..had fun thou..hey nurse..bttr recover quick or ur patience will gt infection..woohooo..ok lah..i bttr gt going..eyes cant take it anymore.. nyd ppl!
crap
em trying ma bes to move on...hopefully i wun b disturbed by da past memoriez...hmmm..y am i nt gd enuf..? its lyk..i always dun gt wad i wan..and always happen d oder wae round.. urgh..! i dun wish to say wad em feeling ryd nw..so complicated..! haiz..i duno..bt i feel lyk ders no nd fer me to b 'vain' nemore...lyk kp luking in da mirrior..and sum odr stuff..mayb i shud luk ugly..(wic em alr are) horrible..disgusting.. ermm.. everything's dat bad.. since lyk no one care...so y bother..hahha.. strange..bt mayb being in dat situation wud make ma lyf bttr..woohooo.. shud try..ok...em crapping..well..nothing much to sae thou..juz dat..hmm..nvm.. ayte..i wanna take ma shower..splashhhh...
Hmmmm
oh no....!!! hes sick...!!! poor thing sia...muz take care of urself lah baby..go take medicine..dun stubborn ok...!!! aiyo.. well..hearing his voice..ma heart pain sia..sounded so weak and so sick..haiz...nvm... hopefully he'll gt bttr soon... hmm... teachers' dae celebration was hmm..kinda gd..infact very interesting coz derslots of singing..da 3 bands were awesome...lyk..i cant believe dey can actually play dat well.. compared to da previous yrs..dis tym ard..da guys really improved alot.. bt one thing i disagree..y r da sec 5s so unsupportive and appreciate wad dey gt to see..thou dey dun lyk it..dey shud juz kp da comments to urself lah.. jeering and boo-ing will juz hurt da performers wen dey r alr trying their bes to confront a huge audience..! and its lyk a tradition wen bands are playing..cheering..shouting and screaming are all part of it.. u cant expect the supporters to shut up coz dey hav da ryd to do so.. mayb dey dunno da musician side.. urgh..!!! i was so frustrated by their actions..bt.. wadever it is..dey r still ma fwens.. nvm..fergt abt it.. we managed to give all da subj teachers their card...hope they lyk it..esp mr quek..coz i made da card..ahhha... oh ya..did ma expression showed da unhappy me?? well..ma fwen said.i dun luk happy while waiting fer ma name to b announced fer da prize giving..fer da mt o lvl distinction students.. ouh..wadahell..i dun even care... after skul..mt da idiot and went bugis.. bought anoder lanyard and ma eyes cudnt stp eyeing fer da clothes.. hmmm...no skul tmr..duno wad em gonna do..prelim's in 3 wks tym..die..! hafta study HARD and SMART..! well..bttr gt going..i've bn sticking to da comp since i gt home frm skul..mama's gonna shout if shes aware of dat..till den...nyd..!
Sorry
i tried to b as per normal..and still trying..i dun gt u..u always want a brk up coz u said u love mt too much and dat u dun wanna see me unhappy...and wad do u mean by saving dis rshp wen its alr destroyed..wad actually do u wan...??? i've gt no freaking idea..avoid is nt da werd to use..u imagine..after wad had happened..yes..em nt talking to u or sumthing bt u cant expect me to tok to u as often wen ma heart has bn hurt by ur foolish act..? honestly...i really dun understand u..u msg me lyk hw u used to wen we were together..if lyk dat..mite as well we dun brk ryd..? wad do u wan frm me?? as i said..we'll still b fwenz bt plz minimise ur msgs..urgh...!!!i duno wad to say..ok.fer da pass few daes..u were acting oddly...den u said wad i did hurts u. huh??? plz think rasionally... tell me wad did i do.. bt as stubborn as ever..u wun..bttr kp it to urself.. ryd..luk.. i duno if ma werds r harsh on u.. bt i really dun wanna dwell on dis matter nemore..wad i said here..is wad em thinking..sori if ur hurt by ma werds.. i really duno wad to say alr lah..mayb i juz cant understand u.. dun ask me..ask ur fwens to say abt ur weakness.. u really hafta change...fer da bttr.. or else...u cant see da bright path fer ur lyf... tilll den..tk cr...
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