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YELLOW HOUSE WON...!!!!! after 11 yrs..finally...todae...da 29th of april...yellow house hit off as DA CHAMPION...!!! was sucha a great dae...even after heats 1&2, yellow house was alr leading.. and it cont to succeed and finally it reaches da top.. haiz...was so happy...i shouted practically everytym da announcer announced da winner frm yellow house..u mite not imagine how i shouted...damn loud and high pitch...ouch... it hurt ur ears..bt i dun giv a damn...i shouted fer all i care...den...we tuk lots of photos...but most of dem hav da same faces...hahah... a very memorable sports dae... after dat...me, naq, ayu and shane..met ma fwen at 0230..supposed to go studying but end up walking ard bugis..hes a nyc guy lah..but i wun dare him again man..he really did da dare...ouch.. bt its so swit of him to send me hm and gav me a boz of ferrero.. i've erased HIS name frm ma memory... go to hell wif him..i wanna move on..no point waiting over sucha guy..yup...em gonna live ma life to da fullest man.. "....sum dae when im lyk totally fed up kn..i will juz walk away frm u..lyk wad u did...and i'll let feel hw i feel...whether it hurts u anot...malas ar i nk type lagi...but let me tell ya smth...i promise u dat i wun apologise to u alot of tyms animore..u nk majok u punye pasal...i hate being treated lyk this...no life..and i dun wanne go thru the same feeling...the feeling dat gonna leave a scar fer the rez of ma life..." i guess i found d answer long tym ago... y am i so stupid not to realise it from da start...? now eveything seems to b cuming back.. reading da msges and everything reminds me of da pain he went thru.. em really useless... mayb em not fit to be anyone's gf...coz i cant make dem happy... mayb i shud juz stay lyk dis ferever... i gt dis from lina's journel in hi5.comits so nyc and its so true... check it out...: When you love someone so deep inside, It seems like it's so easy to hide. You've loved him for so very long, You would think he could do no wrong. Every day you would hope and pray, That he would always stay this way. He treated you like you should be treated, You thought your life was finally completed. You thought your love was growing true, And then one day it was all so blue. He started putting you down and it hurt, You thought all you were to him was dirt. He started ignoring you and you wondered why, All you wanted to do was curl up and die. You thought your relationship would never end, But that was all so fake and pretend. One night he was so sweet to you, You thought all those things were maybe untrue, Two days later he was back the same, You thought you were the one to blame. He thought the relationship was getting too serious And that you had become a little too curious. By this time you knew it wouldn't last, All the nice things he said were in the past. You thought that you would marry him some day, But this time God wanted to get his way. You wanted things back how they were before, But you knew this couldn't happen anymore... y am i feeling dis way...? am i begining to fergt abt him? i juz dun seem to bother abt him anymore..i kold him juz now to tell sum stuff abt tmr...(its his bdae)...he seems lyk he was kinda bz..so i made it fast..dun care if he doesnt wan to tok to me...bt da strange thing was dat..ma heart doesnt go wild while toking to him juz now..usually it does... strange...and its even stranger that i feel lonely wen ma fwen din kol me.. miz da voice i guess... wads wrong wif me...i thot ma luv was only fer him...? am i gonna stop luving him alr..? no way man...hes ma fers luv... nvr will i fergt dat man...wadever happens..hes der in ma mind and mayb heart...but wen i thot abt it maself...why shud i care abt him wen i dun even noe if he cares abt me... ryd...? mayb hes out der enjoying and em here..not giving maself anoder chance to love or be loved by sumone new..argh...i juz cant bring maself to...mayb em not ready... god...plz help me...if hes having fun out der and gt a new replacement and worst..have fergttn abt me...den let me hav dat kind of happiness too...i will try to totally frgt abt him if i hafta...i noe hes not cuming back to me... dats y em trying very hard to accept oders..bt dis heart of mine is juz very stubborn... haiz... mayb if ders sum1 who can really make me happy... i dun mind being wif him... em very lonely u noe.. if u wan me to juz wait fer him.. sampai bulan jatuh pun dia tk dtg blek... menyeksekn diri je.. fyn... i hav to prepare maself to face da werld out der man... not gonna stay timidly in dis room..but wen am i gonna be dat strong...??? to whom it may concern...
I dunnoe why I risk my heart lovingWhen I know it would break again The pieces of my heart which i once picked up Would be shattered once again Should I leave him, or should I stay? Sometimes I wish i could leave him astray But it would hurt me if I were to Tell me now, what I'm supposed to do? Refraining myself from feeling this way, But just too bad this feeling will stay Wondering when it will go away Regretting every minute,every day When you tell me you love me, Its a major sentence, can't you see? Shedding these tears is a waste of time Its like wasting my every dime I love you & I will always do But my heart always bleed for you Can't you see how my love is true? I dun think i will give you any clue I once told you, "Dun leave me,please!" Cuz being with you is such a bliss Whenever you gave me ur special kiss, I feel so great, I feel so peace Note that, Good things dun last forever I'm glad that were once called lovers Now, I'm bidding you my goodbye Save the tears, please don't cry |
